It's time to stop kidding yourself

I am young.

Age is a factor in many things.

Respect is a factor to.

I was remembering telling someone that when I was younger no one could wait for certain ages:
12 - no more kids menu
13 - Teenager!(not so much I remember that milestone, but now I hear about it more)
16 - Drive Legally Everywhere With people
18 - "Adult"
21 - Legal to Drink
25 - Car Insurance goes down


However, after the time passed, there was no glory.
It came and that which we had wanted to do, we had done.
So it wasn't really a big deal anymore.

About the only age factor now is 49 for spiritual reasons, but I notice people believe certain things because of the age they perceive me to be and the age they are. Unfortunately this dovetails into their perceptions of what respect should be.

The statement: Just because you're old doesn't mean you're an elder, applies to respect too.

Many people believe they deserve respect for one reason or another.

Honestly, no one ever deserves respect unless they give it. You should respect those who leads by example, and offer words when needed, not those who lead with words and offer examples through those words.

Through my life respect is a defining factor of how I do things and react to other things. It is the underlying philosophies I have built around respect that determine my interaction with others.

Respect is why I don't drink, smoke, or have soda anymore.

I respected the doctor when I had kidney stones, and gave up soda. There are many things since I have learned based on that decision to abide by a more learned man's advice.

I gave up smoking, because I respected the future, and knew it was holding me back and clouding my judgment and desires.

I gave up drinking, because I finally developed respect for my body.


Those who do not do as I are no less respected, unless there is some other reason for them to be since.

This is the real reason why I can't stand Lying, Cheating, and Stealing. It is the most blatant display of disrespect you can easily show.

Honesty was talked about much today on the radio, and people's refusal to be honest with themselves, their "loved" ones, friends, and even the person they swore their life's devotion to.

"How many relationships go under for lack of communication?"

"When you stop talking you stop caring."

That all sounds simple to me, yet it is made complex.

Respect is the underlying issue. If you have FEAR of someone then how do you respect them or expect them to respect you. Fear causes many adverse reactions to a situation, and has made this the nation of fear not the nation of respect.

Why is it that it is a rare story to hear of sacrifice for greater good than oneself?

Answer: Lack of respect. We are taught from the beginning that we are important. The movie "Ghost Town" had a great deal to do about the subject. It may have been a comedy, but many great messages are hidden in unsuspecting places.

One thing I have learned though, Americans have problems reading between the lines. Taught to be quick and easy rather than learn more doing it the right way. Lack of respect for those who came before.


IT A NEW SYSTEM: NEVER BEFORE EVER EVER ever....

Or perhaps you insignificant idiot, you didn't listen when you were told, and now what you attempt to offset as yours really was around long before your birth.

It needs to stop

If you truly don't believe in oppressing others for your gain or the gains of few then stop calling yourselves king, queen, princess, and prince. Or for that matter, any for of divine lineage or elevated to superiority status based in feudal times.

You claim to believe America is a democracy yet I'm constant seeing queen everywhere.

Stop it. Seriously.

It's as annoying as Catholics in America actually claiming to be Catholic.

I missed my printer

It's very handy to have it back up and running so I can do things much more efficiently, such as print envelopes and handouts.

Now the next task is finishing up the GED tomorrow, and then picking the music for the demos.

Now, I'm even more confusing

hehehe, not that I use it much however I changed my myspace so when I leave a comment or send Melin a movie message, my photo is a kitty with gun.

What a waste

I am currently wasting over $1,036.31/month to pay my credit cards off this year in full.

The year game plan not a waste, but the fact that I have that much going out just on one segment of bills is.

Total debt over 117 thousand, credit cards over 10 of that now... bloody ridiculous.

Although I just got done with my taxes for this year, and well man I've been given the government way too much money this year too. So, now I'm going to get about $3000 back in taxes. Which is going first to next months bills, since YCOA hasn't hit me up with a mileage check in 2 months. Matter of fact my mileage will be higher than my paycheck when it comes in.

Then 1850 of that credit card debt will be paid off, granted most of that is Japan, but wow, still that's too much Credit Card debt. I made a plan to to get all cards paid off this year, and then next year since the Cobalt is down to as much as credit cards were this year, pay it off, and work on getting the Charger paid off in two years, instead of the remaining of either.

Now to see if I can stick to it.

I know if I had a steady income of 3600 after taxes each month I would be set debt free in 6 years, but I doubt that will happen anytime soon.

Change

There may be nothing scarier than the word change, except choice. To make a change one must make a choice. Before this, one must determine a reason for change. Yet still before that, one must admit something isn't right.

The first step may be admitting there is a problem, but not necessarily. A problem means wrong, but for change; nothing has to be wrong, only not right. Therefore, a change can be needed only for improvement or to prevent a future problem. This may be why change is such a scary thing. It means admitting our own imperfection.

To understand that, we must realize that we have been misled. Many have been told you are are perfect just the way you are, and taken it at that. These same people then wonder why they get suggestions for improvement. This means a minor correction is needed in our collective brains. The statement should be revised to state that you are fine the way that you are. Perfect being an absolute it leaves no room, and makes the giver out to be a liar, and leads the receiver to resentment.

The next hard step in this line is understanding fluidity. During the course of a lifetime goals change. Unless we stop to look, we don't realize it happened. So, while conscious change becomes scary; subconscious change happens with ease. Once we are able to cross the threshold of understanding we gain a certain amount of control over a change that isn't fully under our own control. Yet has control over us.

This duality of ourselves isn't easy to comprehend in our linear existences. The relinquishing of control gives us control. Bringing the subconscious into the conscious makes the easy known, yet the hard easy. Our lives intertwine with those around us; making a seemingly linear existence make multiple circles. While journeys may end where they began you will not be the same. Thus is our life, a series of choices that bring about change. How scary it is thinking of all that lies ahead and what little lies behind. Change by your choice or someone else's, that is the constant in all our lives.

10 small things that make a big difference

10. Holding the door open
whether for a stranger or a friend
shows caring for others, helps take away selfishness
9. Washing your hands completely
not just a rinse and dry
refreshes self and puts others at ease
8. Wiping off toilet rim when done(men)
it's your mess
helps keep toilet clean whether it's yours or not
7. Before drying hands, wiping down sink
gets more water to the drain
keeps residue from building and shows concern for next in line
6. Smile Back
even if you don't feel like smiling
good and bad moods can be contagious, and it just might make someone's day
5. Pick up trash
if it's not nasty and disgusting
especially yours, but if it's not maybe the person didn't even know they dropped it, so do it without mean thoughts
4. Wipe your feet/shoes
the rug is there for that reason
even if you don't think your feet are dirty
shows you care about who has to clean up
3. Say excuse me
even if you could do whatever without disturbing someone
helps remind ourselves and others that there are other people besides us
2. Accept blame for little mistakes
it makes the big ones easier to handle
make no excuse just accept that you messed up
1. Say thank you
a little does go a long way
sometimes you are the only person to say those two words to that person on a given day
say it for the little things, but especially the big ones

Bowling

After a good flick - Notorious
Good dinner - Montana Mike's
Smitty called and he, Cherie, and I went bowling.

It was an all round good day.

I even broke 100 at bowling.

Also I threw the ball at my highest known speed of 22.4 mph

It was fun and I'm glad they stopped in.

Respect

-that which is most lacking in America today.
-is more often desired & thought deserved than given
-If only talked about, cannot be shown
-without this the future has no hope
-sometimes means more than one correct answer
-age doesn't denote respect, behavior does.
-should be applied universally
-for the future should be shown in the actions of the present
-means not summarily dismissing another's beliefs because they differ from yours
-tied with courtesy closely
-is attempting to understand others needs
-saying to someone's face what you say behind their back
-...

more done

Well I've got the 10 week plan for Fan, Tonfa, Broadsword, and Staff, now just to find my Nunchukka sheet to polish that one off.

Yoga

Well nothing else to do until Yoga tonight at 4!

A picture of Ueno Koen - Ueno Park

Canceled Day

Man STJ canceled school today, not for snow or ice, but because it's cold.

Cold!

What?

So now next week I have to do a funky class for registration and for awards in the second.

Just two more

until all this semester is done and then into next semester.

You think your phone is fancy?

Not in comparison with these multilingual hitech devices from across the ocean

You are an example

When thinking about respect remember that first and foremost.

You are an example to those around you.

Whether you like it or not those who see you young and old notice what you do and may or may not act accordingly, but they will remember what you have done.

If you say one thing and demonstrate another your respect level will be very low.

My room was THIS big

At least 1/6 done

I got the certificates to print for Saturday's Class, now just every other class to go. Now that I have the setup it should be easier, but man Sunday will be boring...

A shot From Japan

Clearly I was moving and it is at night

back quickly to tired

I was all rested on Sunday and Monday, now Tuesday, I'm back to tired as before the trip. Such a short time. I hope I hear from the UPS guy soon and get that gig up there. It's a pretty sweet gig.

Delivering Fliers though.... No Mileage until next week from last year still either. That sucks. Hopefully it's a great check though.

Good times were had

I enjoyed myself although I didn't do too much. As soon as we got into Minneapolis I wanted to go back. I had many present to dish out and much to do upon my return. The food was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good.

I fell in lust from the first woman I saw until the last one on the plane ride home.

It was a culture of respect there. I felt more at home there than here to be honest even though we were in a huge city.

It was clean everywhere we went.

Even though at times it was hectic, it was calming to be there.

I wish we adopted their clean towel for hands before a meal policy over here.

Honestly, I could live there without regret. Every 10 meters it's like a whole different city.

*inhale*
*exhale*

I hope I get to go back soon.

Made it Back

Deleted the File from the desktop and now and copying my pictures as I bought a camera after Joe was too tired for 3 days to take really any photos even though he took his nice camera and bought a new lens.... which he didn't use.