Food Pantry

So now I finally have some food. I got to the food pantry right as they opened. Good freaking times. The lady that hits on me at Karate is all excited now that she has my phone number off my business card.

Semi Productive Day

I got the rest of the sword kata uploaded image wise onto the Karate site, found the food pantry and it's slim hours, got some boxes for Deanna, and found out that Yssouf no longer works at the T-Bell. Then I just kind of sat around and did some random stuff.

Intriguing

So within a week two people have told me I am quite attractive, this girl Jen that is always at the 8th Street seems to hit on me, but I can never tell as she is always drinking... so who knows... I still find it really weird that anyone would think as such. However I did make a good funny, she was smiling overly much, a sure sign of being tipsy, and she said perhaps she was smiling merely because I was there. Then I said well I doubt it, and said that it took me two years to realize my ex wasn't smiling b/c she was happy to see me, but happy that someone was happy to see her.

*head scratch*

O freaking a doth this battle rage inside..... Too much worry I believe is to blame, and lack of nutrition.... I do not specifically know, only that I need to get fixed...

many strange thoughts

So I am thinking about giving up alcohol. I sent an email to my brother Christopher to see what his thoughts are on the subject. I have been getting really pent up lately and having terrible thoughts. I need to figure out why this is, or else I fear for others lives.... literally. I think I am keeping things in to avoid confrontations, since I know I am abnormally violent thinking lately, however, this act just adds to it. My dreams have even been reflections of these emotions. I am constantly not only having these drastically violent thoughts, but am quite lustfull... Also I have constant thoughts running through my head about how to live without a house/expenses.... Shudders, I really hope no one pushes me too far.

Arena Rocker

So I figured it out, I am a musician, not punk, not emo fo damn sho, not a hip hop fanatic, but since I like everything that is good I must merely be a musician, but mostly an Arena Rocker!

So apparently they were updating the server that gives me my free one... hopefully, but it is still down.

Hackers have become slackers

So some hackers decided to f' up the whole free web domain that I just got, how nice of them. Back in my days we didn't mess up stuff that was chill like that. Mainly b/c it was there to help us too. Kids today just have no morals, they should all be blown up along with most of the world, why can't people have respect?

Finances

So I just calculated it out and somehow I still need 382 bones to pay all my bills this month, so I am going to try and sell my acoustic with the pimpin' hard shell case that I've had for freaking ever, and still have the first ever money I made from playing in the case.... looked up prices and it's worth it, but I just don't know if I can get em to pay me that for it... *deep breath* F* I hope so.... I am going to shoot for $400

Another Thursday

Freaking A, yet another Thursday and I couldn't go to sleep. I did play some guitar and learn a few new chords however. Then I played so Alpha Centauri... why must it be so addictive, and have been passively listening to some German, but I don't think it has work on my subconscious too well... or maybe after I sleep it will, but that won't be until after work... *takes nap* NOT work is in an hour and a half no way I could nap now! Stupid body. Off to shower.

Leavenworth

So I went up and visited with my mom, Lisa, yesterday. Had some good times, caught up, swam, got guitar lessons, lap steel lessons, and she gave me a guitar with a case, a tuner, and a strap.... So sweet an old hollow body. By far it was quite a great day.

Wendy's

So I had a hankering, and decided to act on it. Went to Wendy's and purchased a Triple with cheese.... mmmmm... So now from the loss of $5 I am doing some pre-drinking before heading out to see Nick at 8th Street tonight.

Wish I wasn't so darn depressed all the time... stupid need for money and food....

good day

Paid my Car insurance, deposited that $50 that I went to Dusty's and got yesterday, that Crown accidentally sent them. It looks like the Bill pay went through online. Doing some laundry, and will probably mow Deanna's yard for her during my lunch break. Good times.

New Keyboard

So smitty spilled some Bacardi on the keyboard and f'd up the lower left corner, Z, X, C, and space bar for sure. However, I also got a new cable to hook up the modem, and now it seems to be connecting much better. Good times.

Could be fun

So I got bored and emailed Afentra's Big Fat Morning Buzz the other day, and well lo and behold I might get to go in to the studio for a rousing version of Karate Instructor dating game.... good times... I hope!

Class tonight

Well they seemed excited about the new abilities of the website, hope it works out well. Put up more things incl. the katana kata, last summer's fan kata, and the nun chuck kata. I also am working on putting up the spreadsheets of who has earned what so that everyone can see their acheivements, I have the Munchenburger Merit Badges up. I switched PC's to see if I can easily do the other ones.

Holy Bejebus

13 y.o. and less that could whoop my butt on the ISKA US World Open Karate Tourney on ESPN 2 today holy freaking cow could they use weapons. Jennifer Espina had a chrome staff and flips in the air and spins holy cow do I wish I had nothing to do but practice martial arts....

Odd dream

I had an odd dream last night that actually woke me up... freaky deaky it was! Scanned in the "class patch" and put that up in the upper left instead of the picture of me, mainly for the fact that I don't like pictures of me. I wish I hadn't forgotten where the free food place was....

Karate Web

Now all the Katas that I have on the computer except for the Fan and Staff katas are there, man that took a bit of doing, but picutes and html is up and they are all linked to the Curriculums included the Merit badges that I did earlier. Long day at work.... need to stop planning easy ways to kill.....

Karate Web

Now all the Katas that I have on the computer except for the Fan and Staff katas are there, man that took a bit of doing, but picutes and html is up and they are all linked to the Curriculums included the Merit badges that I did earlier. Long day at work.... need to stop planning easy ways to kill.....

Almost there

So the lady that came over about the room wants to throw down the deposit tonight, hopefully she calls me back soon. Changed the Karate site some more and am about to do so again, put up the Merit Badge page and changed up the opening page some. Class didn't happen in the park today nobody showed up b/c I am guessing, the rain that happened and the Tornado Watch that I believe to still be in effect. Went to see this crazy messed up movie with Joe, b/c the newspaper had a misprint and the movie we wanted to see doesn't actually come out 'til next week.

Not for the weak or young minded however!

Song for the day is off of Punk-O-Rama 10

NOFX LYRICS

"There's No Fun In Fundamentalism"

There’s no fun in Bible study class
There’s no fun getting fucked in the ass by a priest
Unless your old and into that,
It’s no Fun for a kid who is scared as shit

There’s no fun when praying on a mat
There’s no fun being covered in black clothes in the desert
Unless you’re Goth and into that,
But not if you’re a woman who is treated like dog shit

There’s no fun for fundamentalist
There’s no fun for the poor capitalist
There’s no fun for Regan in Exorcist
There’s no fun, There’s no fun

There’s no fun in a theocracy
There’s no fun unless you have a chosen people i.d.
Still then you got that God decree
And that’s no fun for anyone

Reeking of Bleach

So I cleaned Leah's room top to floor, am in the midst of steam cleaning the carpet I spent about 3 hours cleaning that room tonight after work, some chica called about the room. Tommorrow I am going to take recyclables and all the clothes Leah left to the Salvation army or the Goodwill. Finished the Curriculum portion of the site next I am going to make a Merit Badge section and then on to the Kata's and then interlinking the req's with them as I am that nice and maybe eventually vid clips for stuff.

Yesterday Yuriuy was giving me flak about needing a roommate and that I should just go get married and move in with her... I was like if only it were that easy... I mean penquins make it work why couldn't I?

Basics

So a parental asked me about a website today, so low and behold as I couldn't sleep that is what I made, super basic. Se Han has one, but man does he have a buttload more time and money than myself as he has real video on his and a ton of pics and such. I just robbed my old website's frames and am in the midst of getting all the curriculums into web format. Then I'll move on to Kata's and the Merit Badge thing but those should be superbly easy in comparison. Albeit I found a nice function of Microsoft Word and I don't have to do it all on notepad like I did the first one. However for free registration I had to get a weird-o tag at the end so the website is http://senseijames.1dot.net/ still nothing like Se Han's at http://www.sehankim.com/ who's got that baby on lock down as that is a pay per addy... but still wicked tight.

Well

I have a few more students in St. Joe, however still not enough. Good drive home, yet I still can't sleep. Everyone seemed to do okay tonight, we learned the first quarter of the 32 Form Broadsword Play, kata, and the first 4 moves of Taikyoku Sho Dan in the green and up class which has three belts over green/blue. Then in kata class we went over all of Sho Dan and Kumo E Dan, did some stance drills. White/Yellow seemed to be having fun, and in Green they seemed interested in the fact that everyone learns the same blocks/strikes/kicks so that everyone can be tested for merit badges. Homework for all classes was practice, White/Yellow their new moves 5 minutes a day, Green and up was Dojo Etiquette merit badge practice, and kata class was to work on the first two katas from tonight. Huzzah!

wicked weird

I read the inside of the Kerplunk CD man is there a funny story. I can't believe I haven't read it before. It's about some girl killing her parents to go on tour with Green Day.

My bank account has an entire 1.77 in it. Stupid stamps... I mailed off two bills today. 75 and 30 so that's already coming out of tomorrow's paycheck. Gots to hit up the office today en route to St. Joe. Hope that fuel stays below 29 bucks, since that's all the credit I have rights now....

C.O.U.R.T.

went and this time one of the peeps showed up Cheryl, albeit late. Then she claims she needs witnesses so both cases got postponed until July 28th at 9am, which confused the crap out of me since cases aren't normally heard until 10am for small claims. What a P.I.T.A. She is trying to claim the apartment was unlivable.... right why can't I just beat people in the face?

8th and Best

Went to 8th street taproom last night with absolutely no money, and the man himself gave me two free drinks which was superbly pimping of him, however no one else from work made it there.

The Shield was kickin'.

Went this morning and got the recall notice taken care of at the car dealership.

Then took my 45 dollars in Best Buy gift Certificates over there and got Spinal Tap on DVD, Bob Marley: The Legend, Live at Santa Barbara County Bowl November 25th, 1979, Green Day's Kerplunk, and the new Punk-O-Rama which included a DVD as well. So I got 2 cd's and 3 DVD for only 3.18 out of pocket. Ok on the Best Buy card....


One of the songs I heard already of the Punk-O-Rama is by Sage Francis - Sun vs. Moon

AWESOME!




Th-the devil
Th-th-the devil
(repeat x4 then continues until "settle their differences")

The devil only exists because of your belief in him
Same goes for that other guy
I believe the sun is simply reflecting the shine from the moon (word?)
Stealing its spotlight, they'll have a cockfight at noon
To settle their differences
At midnight, rematch
To stir up their similarities on turntables
That chicken scratch proved to be unreadable
The determining factor in who gets the pitch to control the tides
No one decides a victor unless they give a fair listen to both the sides
We're low-lives
We go blind jerking off to the eclipse
The sun was pulling cheap shots doing commercial body tricks
Behind the back
Under the leg
I think he even did a headspin
On a crossfader that sounded whack
What protection in
All of the sudden it gets dim
The crater face steps in
Puts mexican drumbreaks on the Technics
He's like "Let's begin"
He conducted an orchestra so dope the sun started sweatin' him
I guess he'd expected to win on pure artistic merit
Composing complex plays with nothin but soundbytes
Burned out the lights
Made MCs too self conscious quit the master mics
For a thousand nights
Continued without a single slip up
Except once the record skipped
But it kinda sounded cool
And fit within the rhythm he was juggling
Poly-rhythms out of country western albums spinning
It is plain that he had come to win
But as always due to corrupt judging
They drew a tie
Now it's do or die

The sun was like
no no no
The moon was like
go go go
(repeat x3)

And when the sun was chosen
I came to the conclusion
His dad doesn't know what he's doin'

God's not a woman
He's a big white guy in the sky
And the deserts are reflections of his eyes
He doesn't cry for us
But when he does
It's cause he's drunk
(Say What?)
God's not a woman
He's a big white guy in the sky
And the deserts are reflections of his eyes
He doesn't cry for us
But when he does
It's cause he's drunk
And he's always fucked up
Bottom's up

God's not a woman
He's a bitch

Th-the devil
Th-th-the devil
(repeat x4)

This is one hand clapping alone
This is the smallest violin
Run rabbit when they fight to kill your baddest poem
The devil is the fucking white man
This is one hand clapping alone
This is the smallest violin
Run rabbit when they fight to kill your baddest poem
The white man (the white man)
(Th-th-the devil)


Way to go Bad Religion for having them on your label!

whew

Well now I will have 3 whole dollars and some odd change in the bank whnece the rent check goes through.

The young should have heard this word: impetuous, but do they know what it means?

1 : marked by impulsive vehemence or passion
2 : marked by force and violence of movement or action

And that's right all youth is. So DEAL!

YAY

So I finally got the correct insurance things in the mail today, and that means I can actually go get the wagon registered... once I get the money. Got the 80 from Deanna and a buck from Noman so I just need to gather up my change and deposit it tomorrow so hopefully that will just be enough....

hehe

So I had this awesome dream where I went back to the area I went to high school in as a Navy hitman. Then towards the end we were talking about whether I wanted to up my ops to code 3's instead of code 2's, but I was explaining to whoever that I didn't like code 3 ops, because I had to caputure more peeps instead of straight up easy killings. So there would be a larger risk to myself. Even though I would get almost double pay it wasn't worth it to me.

Bought some cheapy malt-o-meal Knock off brand, that's right cheaper than malt-o-meal cereal, today. Now I just hope Deanna has that check tonight and then I can turn in my change so my check doesn't bounce.

Good news(slightly)

so I found out that head blood was just from a bug bite, and the head pains are from mere malnutrition and my constant tiredness is from a protein defecientcy YAY! or not....

I am getting the money from the underwear party in the bus finally.. months later.

Good times, I also put up the Apartment as for rent on Apartments in Lawrence or whatever that is...

If any of these songs remind you of a someone you are dating or want to date, word of advice if even slight the reminder drop and drop em fast.

F*D Up Girl - The Vandals

I'm well aware that you are chemically imbalanced
But I'm the kind of guy that likes a challenge
My crazy kind of girl who lives in her own world
Who is legally insane

I'm not afraid and I will rise to the occasion
And I'll remind you when it's time for medication
For a mixed up little girl alone in this big world
Who is legally insane

You need someone who cares
When you're losing it or delusional
You need someone to hold your hand
If you're confused at all
I understand all the problems you got
I stay up nights on a suicide watch
For you... f*d up girl...

I'll be with you until we find a good solution
And keep you out of any mental institution
You need some special care and I always will be there
Coz you're legally insane

It'll take some patience and a lot of sacrifice
Helping a lunatic get through her life
I'll protect you from yourself coz you've got nobody else
And you're legally insane

You need someone who's there
When you're losing all your faculties
You need someone who understands
All your abnormalities
I understand all the problems you got
I stay up nights on a suicide watch
For you... f*d up girl...

You need someone who cares (that's me!)
When you're losing it or delusional (you're not!)
You need someone to hold your hand
If you're confused at all (ho, ho, ho!)
I understand all the problems you got
I stay up nights on a suicide watch
For you... f*d up girl...


She's Got Issues - The Offspring

I'm seeing this girl and she just might be out of her mind
Well she's got baggage and it's all the emotional kind
She talks about closure and that validation bit
I don't mean to be insensitive, but I really hate that shit

Oh man she's got issues
And I'm gonna pay
She thinks she's the victim
Yeah

Now I know she'll feel abandoned
If I don't stay over late
And I know she's afraid to commit
But it's only our second date

Oh man she's got issues
And I'm gonna pay
She says she's the victim
But she takes it all out on me

I don't know why you're messed up
I don't know why your whole life is a chore
Just do me a favor
And check your baggage at the door

Now she talks about her ex nonstop, but I don't mind
But when she calls out his name in bed
That's where I draw the line
You told me a hundred times how your father left and he's gone
But I wish you wouldn't call me daddy
When we're gettin' it on

Oh man she's got issues
And I'm gonna pay
She's playing the victim
And taking it all out on me
My god she's got issues
And I'm gonna pay

If you think I'm controlling
Then why do you follow me around
If you're not co-dependent
Then why do you let others drag you down

I don't know why you're messed up
I don't know why your whole life is a chore
Just do me a favor
And check your baggage at the door


Katrina - Marvelous 3

I was the kind of kid back in school
Who wore a members only jacket, and said it was kool
That's when I met katrina, she was best friends with seshel
I thought she was the one, yeah I thought she was special
I saw her in the hall about quarter til three
I said I'll take you in my nova, to the tasty freeze
She said I know all about you, more than I should
I know all about the dirty mags you keep in the woods

So tell me how I'm supposed to sleep when I've been stalked by a lesbian
I can't sleep a wink, and I'm married to the ephedrine
How am I supposed to sleep when I've been stalked by a lesbian now

Now don't take it light, it might seem funny to you
Yesterday my science project, was covered in glue
So I asked that guy seshel, was it something I said
He said quit being so fuckin' paranoid, it's all in your head
The way she's looking at me, I think she wants me to be,
The guy that always gets shot in every movie you see
Oh God, She's walking this way, oh god what could I say,
I hope and pray that one day she'll be straight

So I was at a bar the other night and I looked across the room and
there's this girl and she walks up to me and she's beautiful and she
says 'Hey, I'm Katrina, dude, remember me?' and I freaked I said 'Oh
my god I thought you looked familiar' about this time this 400 fucking
pound woman walks up with Katrina's face tattooed on the side of her
neck, she comes waddling and says 'DON'T FUCK WITH MY GIRL' I looked
at Jabba straight in the fucking eye and say 'Don't worry every time
I picture Katrina's face it's gonna be on the side of your gross,
fat-assed, 3 chinned neck' she says 'Are you stupid?'
I say 'NO I'M JUST SOBER!!!!'


and lastly Herion Girl - Everclear

I used to know a girl
She had two pierced nipples and a black tattoo
We'd drink that Mexican beer
We'd live on Mexican food
Yes, I wish I could go back
Yes, back in time
Esther used to be the kind of girl that you would never leave
She'd do anything to give me what I need for my disease
She'd do anything
I can hear them talking in the real world
But they don't understand that I'm happy in hell
With my heroin girl
I am losing myself in a white-trash hell
Lost inside a heroin girl
They found her out in the fields
About a mile from home
Her face was warm from the sun
But her body was cold
I heard the policeman say
Just another overdose
Esther used to be the kind of lover you would never leave
She'd do anything to give me what I need for my disease
She would do anything

blood?

Randomly my head started bleeding today... what fun?!?! nothing too bad, but with my head constantly hurting it's probably not a good sign!

Eminem Video

This new Eminem video came on with Triumph, it's freakin' great. Laughed from the get go. What a way for the conflict to be resolved!

Good-ish opening day

Very few about 20 students showed up. They seemed enthused though. Then one of the mom's hit on me, I mean bad.. that kind of, okay really, freaked me out.

Lazy Day

Wow I took a lazy day, couldn't really do anything, my body is so falling apart.

Double Down

Well I've cleaned off both desk areas now. I can actually see the tops of them. *grin* Thinking about going to kegs and eggs with the Shout out Louds tomorrow at the Hurricane.

Found some papers that I don't know if I typed in here so I figured I'd do it again. Oh and I found my song book so now I can start taking that with me again.

I hear that song on the radio, makes me think of how we used to know, one another.
That look that came from deep in your eyes.
When all I had to do was hold you close, to make you feel better.

however I'm thinking a little revision

I hear that song on the radio, makes me think of how we used to know.
That look that came from deep in your eyes.
When all I had to do was hold you close, to make the pain go.

Good times... wish I could get this head pain to go away.