25.9.08

I have to say

Today was a good day.

Class for me was alright, even though some mixed news.
Office was alright, even though I found out they have plans they haven't told me about yet for me, and thus I'm supposedly off limits for Dave to use for T-Shirts and Raffle.
Class I taught was alright, even with a few attitudes, but hey that's normal.

I've found this week that kids enjoy the 5A/5E kata so I have been doing it for the last classes.

Paola is interesting to say the least. I think we will be working on only a couple of higher level katas, and sword in the last class mostly.

24.9.08

Part of where I was today

It has been a long time since I actually went to Fort Riley, but delivering flyers today I stopped off on the way back from Junction City. It very moving being out in that much open area, and yet there is always a twinge of sadness because not only does the highway cut through the hills, but people force the land to do what they want instead working with it.
























23.9.08

March 28th, 2003

That is how long it's been since FireBush! had a gig.
*smile*
Wow.

It really puts things in perspective when I went to:

http://www.angelfire.com/myband/FireBush9/

then took a look around at how old those pictures are. I wonder if any of us still know the log in for that or the FireBush email.....

*smile*

How little I know. If only I could get by without talking, I would have so much more time to just listen and find out what I'm missing out on learning.

22.9.08

Master

Webster:

a worker or artisan qualified to teach apprentices
an artist, performer, or player of consummate skill

Although I have been thinking about it a lot lately in the fact that it is used too often and yet not understood that it can be place on a lot of people. You can master anything. Yet many people don't respect those who are masters of things other than what they personally do. Anyone who has truly attained master level is highly skilled and should be regarded highly in our minds, for with so much dedication to one thing they surely have a lot to teach us.

Frequently I am reminded of the story of the Ronin and the Tea Master. For those who have mastered something I would consider it much the mindset. The tea master goes into a mindset when performing a task he has performed so many times before. He reaches "empty mind" and yet still does his task to a high proficiency. There are many people highly skilled in this world who do not do their task to high standards only just enough to do them, because they have done them so often. Yet I feel a master while they know the task has been completed a thousand or more times, still take the time to do it correctly and efficiently. While they may have found ways to shave off time here and there, they do not do it by cutting corners only by a heightened awareness of what needs to be done.

Another thought that frequents me in my deliberation on the subject is that masters should be those with nothing to prove, but willing to teach those who are willing to learn. Many people I see fight for many things, and frequently I am asked to engage in many things of a like nature, however, most of those I know who have been in martial arts as long as I have or longer know that ego is the enemy. If you are fighting in most situations it is for ego, either proving to yourself or to someone else. If you are not learning or teaching; I don't mean "I'm going to teach him a lesson", then their is no real point.

Masters are those who continue to improve themselves, and know that while someone may confer upon them titles, a title is nothing. I once read someone taking great offense to the phrase Grand Master, because how can you be higher than a master they pondered. When in reality those calling themselves that should if all went properly only be those who have attained a higher mastery of what they do, and that the organization that bestows the title upon them has come up with those rules. It was a very American written section too, but it did get me thinking about it, and I know one or two people that are supposed masters, but have not the mindset others should find appropriate with the conference of the title.

There are many sayings along the lines of:
The more you know; the less you know.
The more you know; the more there is to learn.
and so on, but it makes the point clear that the more learned you are at one thing, the more you should realize that you know so very little. Bruce Lee said when he first started a punch was just a punch, then he learned so much about a punch angle, hand positions, different punches, rotation, body movement, and then eventually he realized that a punch was just a punch. This I feel speaks to mastery. In the beginning you know nothing so it's all the same, then as you move through you learn so much and your mind is expanded, but as you approach mastery you realize all those things are still contained in that one item, and eventually you use them all and have no need to think about it, because it has become second nature.

There was a saying in Tae Kwon Do:
A beginning student will block an attack.
An advanced student will counterattack after blocking.
A sabonim does not need to block.

Sabonim meaning Master, which is attained at 4th degree black belt. This saying is showing that mastery of the art also is mastery of observation of others. At the slightest hint of movement a sabonim can read what the other is going to do and therefore will not need to block. However, it is at this stage on my thoughts that the laws come in to hand, because you have to allow the attack to happen before initiating counter measures, but really that just means allowing others to see the aggressor act, not meaning to block the attack, but rather allow it.

With the acceptance of once stringent Asian cultures of teaching non Asians, we have unfortunately opened up their ranks to the egotistical facets of American culture. So much as a real estate agent has a fancy car to show they are good at their job, many feel a good instructor should have his/her walls lined with pictures, or trophies to show proof of their worth, but I say this is unfortunate, and that the best instructors are those who have never had the need to compete for such petty things as trophies. In this country one cannot just be they must show. This I feel is the greatest misfortune and largest hurdle to being in this country, and its moving forward toward a better future.

As such being in this country has made me never want a title. I try to shun them as much as possible. For others perceive things much differently and do not understand many things as they should be. Thus either they take it that you are worthless without a title, or that you are not as good as someone with another title, or that you are a braggart for having a title. This is an overly complex idea brought on by individualism and consumerism and capitalism. None of it is necessary or meaningful. As my instructor used to say and as all true masters know:

Once you believe you have mastered a form *or anything for that matter* you have only proven that you have not.

While I believe that master are highly proficient at that which they teach and may know all the "technicalities" they know as life changes so do they and therefore everything they do changes as well. Which means you may have achieved mastery today, but what about tomorrow, or ten minutes from now, will it still be the same? Basically, yes, but exactly, no.

20.9.08

Dehydrated

Wow it was warm in Topeka today, and man am I feeling it now after the fact.

19.9.08

13.37

That's all the 2 DVD's CD's and videogames I had left were worth.

So that's barely a drop in the bucket.

Looks like it's comic book time.

18.9.08

Got $200

Sold both sets of subs today for $200, and found out my paycheck is only $600... so if first of the month bills are 1500 and I still need 450 for this month's bills.... I'm going to half to come up with a lot out of nothing. I do still have a check from LAC that will be about a hunny. And still too short for shiz.

Where to get cash where to get cash....

17.9.08

Email

well again the email server for my not class email is down, for the 3rd or 4th day in a row.

However, I did get a hilarious message from JP about two of my exes now working under my sister.

16.9.08

You are correct

That is where I got that phrase many years ago.... okay not many maybe 9? or do I even remember where I lived when I saw that.... nope not really...

15.9.08

The long, but not so short of it

3am 'til 3am... maybe just maybe we'll see how long paperwork takes. Topeka Monday was an okay class, just beginners were late. Also about 10 total were MIA. That always whomps.

Hopefully Tuesday I'll see improvements... which reminds me I have to do those testing forms.

13.9.08

Good Classes

Classes are going well so far, today was actually awesome on the new breakdown on Saturday.

I had Julie and the rest of the red belts off on the side to practice their One Steps and Self Defense while the rest of the class was working on Purple curriculum which seemed to go okay. I think for the future I'll just have them do only one or the other though.

12.9.08

TOPEKA is done

took until 3am last night to do all paperwork, but it is done!!! YAY!!!

envelopes are finished, and I just woke up at 13:00, granted I had an alarm at 11:00 in case my mom wanted to go to lunch, but she didn't call so I stayed asleep.

Now that that is over with on to bigger and better.... things

11.9.08

After Hours

I spent a couple on Deerfield, then the server started slowing down, and then a few more hours on Topeka's Hillcrest entering in the pc and I got maybe half done..... so tired, and the rest is all typing, but I don't have the money... that's already been "manually entered" So according to that I was $46 short, but I've found quite a bit if it had been refunded b/c of class time changes from spring semester.

10.9.08

Well don't you just know

how to set me off, and I held back for you too on that.

Although clearly I am not proAmerica, and therefore actually would refuse such a test, and raise utter calamity with the school, and a capable of multiple arguments on any of those subject, and as such was the bane of the existence of American History, Government, and Social Science teachers all throughout my career in the corrupt American educational system.

9.9.08

Here's the Truth






America is now owned more than 2/3 by those 3 countries.

7.9.08

Sunday... Meeting Sunday

I have to head back up to the club today at 6 ish for another more than likely pointless meeting.

went in this morning. Then the next shift guy who wasn't really needed, called in sick. Then the ladies who were needed, were both late for their shift. Therefore I was late to come home and load up two towers to drive to DeSoto and sell for 100 bucks. Luckily the guy hung around. Also when I got home I changed my oil, and checked the mail to find a mileage check for flyer delivery and driving to Paola and St. Joe. Now to do the 101 entries in the pc... oh and I finished sewing up my sleeping bag, and mildly organized some of the karate stuff and my room.

6.9.08

LUCKY LUCKY LUCKY

just so happened to catch The Shield rebroadcast on FX just about when I got home at 10 tonight.......................... AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

One more Start Up

Officially, then just into classes. Had 101 register today at Hillcrest. Good times.

now the downside of that is putting it all in the computer.

2.9.08

Paola Day One

It's weird turning in my money before I have the ability to find out anyone's name after typing in their information. So now....... I have to wait for the paperwork to be entered. Then I find out how many I have and how they divvy up.

It was nice to have Sensei Dave at class. He was quite the cheerleader for me when I wasn't around, I just caught it in glimpses. He was very kind about many things. In my speech I talked about how 6 years ago Sensei Richard was kind enough to help me start out in Lawrence, and that it was an honor to be able to return the favor after his retirement from teaching. Hopefully, for at least one semester I am able to keep most of the students he has down there.