*smack's head*

So I forget that people have these jobs that give them extra days off for random reasons, and now I have to wait for the mail to deliver my paycheck and to be able to pay off the bus. Office Closures, wtf! So I stayed up for nothing, well my mom said she has a hair appointment at 9:15 and has some stuff to give me so I will call her about 8 if I haven't heard from her then I will off to slumber yet again. Nothing like video games and music for 8 hours, with pb&j sandwhiches and beer, plus a whiskuri (whiskey and strawberries blended together for fun and health!) I don't want to work today. I really don't want to work at the gas station ever though.... hmm. Musical fun of the morning was "The Irony of it All" - The Streets

Where's my BBQ chips?

All I had for breakfast was beer... didn't scrounge up any BBQ chips. I got to sleep a lot though. Dusty didn't end up calling to jam. So I went to sleep after lunch, then Deanna called a couple of times, then I woke up to Mucha Lucha so probably around 8pm went to bed from the couch, and slept until about 12:30. Good Times..... Is it wrong to want Janeane Garafolo?

CS LAN

Oh yeah I finally got the Counter-Strike LAN up and running last night, so now it's free range Vid time. Well that is once I get someone else over here who like to shoot shit on pc's...

What Christians don't realize

This song is very meaningful especially for those who believe in a higher power, especially all of those self-righteous christians who need to shut the fuck up, because they are a lying lot.

Dan Bern - God Said No

I met God On the edge of town
Where the wind meets the stillness
Where the darkness meets the light
Where the ocean meets the sky
Where the desert meets the rain
Where the earth meets the heavens
On the edge of town I met God

I asked God
Do one thing for me
Send me back in time
Send me to Seattle
Let me go
Find Kurt Cobain
Take away his gun
Take away his bullets
Talk to him
Make him wanna live
Tell him how we love him
Help him see his glory
God Said No
If I sent you back
If you really found him
You would only ask him
If he could
Help you get a deal
If he knows a lawyer
If he can help you
God Said No

I asked God
Do one thing for me
Send me back in time
Send me to Berlin
Let me find
The one they call Hitler
I will stalk him
I will bring him down
I will bring along
A powerful gun
Loaded with bullets
Obliterate his memory
God Said No
If I sent you back
You would get caught up
In theory and discussion
You would let your fears
Delay and distract you
You would make friends
You would take a lover
God Said No

I asked God
Do one thing for me
Send me back in time
Send me to Jerusalem
Let me go
Let me go find Jesus
Let me save his life
As they try to kill him
Let me take him down
Down from the cross
Take the iron from his body
Try to heal his wounds
God Said No
If I let you go
If you really found him
Walking with the cross
You would stare
Your tongue no longer working
Eyes no longer seeing
Ears no longer hearing
God said Time
Time belongs to me
Time's my secret weapon
My final advantage
God turned away
From the edge of town
I knew I was beaten
And that now was all I had
God Said No

Funny as hell

Two things one this kid wrote to the pitch sex columnist about a move called the pirate. The definition was a girl gives you head you cum in her eye, then kick her in the shin so she hops around on one leg covering her eye going ahg. Much like many other ridiculous adolescent ideas funny, but not so much true. I laughed for a good 1/2 hour on that one. Then I looked up the lyrics to this song:

You should've seen by the look in my eyes, baby
There was something missing
You should've known by the tone a' my voice, maybe
But you didn't listen
You played dead, but you never bled,
Instead you lay still in the grass, all coiled up and hissing

I only put down the intro b/c the rest isn't as prudent, but funny, and the rest of the lyrics are basically the same thing over and over with a solo in between, which made me laugh b/c I hadn't noticed it before.

And aparently the song is called 3.14, but not even like that it's actually Three Point One Four, making it even more hillarious as it progresses:

My last girlfriend didn't like me thought she might be,
Most likely a dyke she just didn't excite me,
Lefty? Yeah but that was alright,
She was hotter than the sun but she just wasn't that bright,
My mistake she was more flaky than a leper colony,
I think a wooden clothespin would have been much better company,
Ass like a donkey acting funky gave her "L" now she's a flunky,
So my love for her died quicker than a batch of Sea Monkeys,
Early bird gets the worm spread your legs or spread the word,
So what if I'm not the smartest peanut in the turd,
I'm white which goes with everything but I can come in any color,
And I'm looking for the kind of girl that reminds me of my mother,
But it's hard to find a girl with a viper tattooed on her tushy,
And how many girls do you know that can play the harmonica with their pussies?
Like em' easy and hot and sweet like a Rice Krispie Treat, gee,
You know what I really want in a girl? Me,

I need to find a new vagina,
Any kind of new vagina,
It's hard to rhyme a word like vagina,
Calvin Klein? Kind of North Carolina,

Women are like dog, doo, hear me through don't interrupt,
It's just the older that they are the easier they get to pick-up,
I'd fill the generation gap clean the cobwebs from her rafters,
Old hens would rather put out than be put out to the pasture,
No age just ain't a gauge I like my girls like my cheese,
Preferably for me fat-free American singles only,
I want my next chick anorexic, the winner is the thinner,
Won't have to take her skinny ass out to a fancy dinner,
Like Sizzler she got a beef we'll chew the fat,
If I forget to put the seat up I can put up with her crap,
Let her lash out and crack the whip but not in bed I don't play rough,
No I can't be tied down with a girl that wants me tied up,
Just independent like NOFX,smart like Janeane Garafolo,
She'd use big words to make fun of me so that I would never know,
Bestow upon me all her wisdom of the Dewey Decimal System, gee,
You know what I really want in a girl? Me,

I need to find a new vagina,
Any kind of new vagina,
It's hard to rhyme a word like vagina,
Kevin Klein? Kind of South Carolina,
Vagina vagina vagina vagina,
Vagina vagina vagina vagina.


and lastly another song that gets stuck in my head since I've been up all night:
More than a Friend

D-Am
More than a Friend,
not quite a Lover.
More than a Friend,
and nothing other.
More than a Friend,
not quite a Lover.
More than a Friend,
was something other.

Em-G-A-B
We Used to Be so Happy
But then It went south
I Loved You More than ever
E-Eb-C#-B
But all you are to me is


D-Am
More than a Friend,
not quite a Lover.
More than a Friend,
and nothing other.

Em-G-A-B
You will always mean
Something more than just a fling
You just gave to much to me
E-Eb-C#-B
Now you can only be

D-Am
More than a Friend,
not quite a Lover.
More than a Friend,
was something other.

Em-G-A-B
I just couldn't be
the way you wanted me
So now you are gone

D-Am
More than a Friend,
not quite a Lover.
More than a Friend,
and nothing other.

solos

Em-G-A-B
It just wasn't meant,
For us to be,
One for all of time
E-Eb-C#-B
No more can we be than

D-Am
More than a Friend,
not quite a Lover.
More than a Friend,
and nothing other.
More than a Friend,
not quite a Lover.
More than a Friend,
was something other.
More than a Friend,
not quite a Lover....

Weirdness

My dreams are so close to reality. I had a dream that David called in the hospital for breaking his foot at some boy scout thing. Other random dreams man it is enough to think that I am leading a double life. Last night I had a song in my head that I wrote! That kind of freaked me out too. "More Than A Friend" was the name of the song and that was kind of cool too. I found the copy on my hard drive, and man I have no vocal confidence. It has some damn fine lyrics, but I need to practice more before it plays out.

Days and Time

I couldn't get to sleep until about noon today. I have no idea why, but it threw off my whole day. So now my day and time perception is completely thrown out of whack. It feels like it's been a month since I've taught class. even thogh it's not even been two weeks. The ebb and flow all feels like rapids. I guess that happens when you know that someday everyone including yourself will die, and you've dealt with it.

Leaving on Bus man

well I think since I haven't seen Basil in awhile that I will take up another regular on their job offer and quit the gas station. That is provided they hired me. Hopefully then I can say f' off gas station. Last night the Beetle girl came in and I found out she strips at the dirty bird, that sux hardcore. No dating strippers for el Jah mess. Well off to slumber, hopefully I keep having those good dreams like I have been.

Followed mike's example

I was still sleeping somehow at the time that I was supposed to be at work. A full 13 hours after I went to sleep. Wow that definately means I am sick. Oh well tonight was slow, as was my working. I had a good memory of the theater tonight that made me chuckle, but I couldn't remember if it was Jeremy or Christopher trying to get a rise out of me that day, however, the memory was one of them was trying to get a rise out of me into a random fun debate by saying that The James wasn't a nickname it was just putting a The in front, how could I consider that a nickname? and I, probably still f'd up, said Tyler did it man, I don't care. Ahh Good Times!

Hooray for LAST CALL

or not.....

aprrox. 60 people from Last Call came in and stole a bunch of booze and other crap last night at 3:30, and there were about 6 cops cars there to escort everyone out of town. Quite humorous.

Earlier some guy said he had never prepaid ever, and that he knew my boss Angie... I don't know who Angie is, but I've heard she worked there about 2 years ago.... and that he would get me fired... *twirls about*

Some crazy guy came in thrice and on the last time he said I was evil and Jinxed his Keno game with my look... that was funny.

Sleepy time is so late b/c Mike was about 1/2 hour late to work....

I yi yi

No B-fast with Jose b/c he worked a different shift then what I called for him on and his phone is still dead.


But before I went to work I dl'd a little cut off of the Hooray for Boobies Albumn from the Bloodhound Gang... hehehe New Vagina, nothing like pissing of the Neighbors with the falceto Vagina chorus at the end.

Bastard Sickness

Still being sick sux. At least my mucus is being mostly clear and I'm not always coughing up what looks like parts of lung. Work was dead last night. Hopefully today will be the same. I love not dealing with dumb and/or drunk people.
*same thing really
I wish my boss would pay me the appropriate hours though. My last paycheck was 3.45 hours short and she said it would be on this one, but alas this one was 9.77 hours short! That is almost 75 bones! Man that is annoying.
While cleaning I found this random Budduhist CD thing that Christina gave me that I never watched because it fell behind the desk, and low and behold it was in a completely different language. I am assuming Chinese. Eh well. Good Times.

From the mouths of babes

Isn't that how the saying goes? Children say the funniest things as per they interpret them through their eyes. Hysterically I laugh at those who wish to be known to all as grown, but are still yet the youth. I admit freely that when it comes to matters of the heart I am young, but as per the rest of it... Not as young as most twice my age. When you know that something you or someone else did is wrong yet you try to defend it; proves only your youthfulness in the matter. Even more hillarious is when these same persons say that is what makes them grown. It's youth because you are expecting lightened consequences as a result. Such as saying well I did this but you did that, sufficed to say we aren't twelve anymore. Perhaps even well I know they stole a million dollars, but come on the system put them in a position where they had to do it to get the money... instead of saying yep their bad, they f'd up in the system, and didn't have the balls to say I f'd up I guess I'll have to declare bankruptcy or work extra hard. If you do, regardless of reasons, you did it; so you need to deal with the consequences. Admit what you did, take blame, and then prove you actually care about messing up by not doing it again. That is why I have renounced religion and "holy days" for doing things when I have the extra to give, and helping out whomever I can when I can.


Youth is selfishness, being grown means you care without being told to.

Good Break

I decided to go out, completely forgetting about all the Corporate/Christian shoppers. I had a good time though, stopped in at Richard's saw the kid from Pangalactic(his name always escapes me), Hit up Creation Station, had some good shirts, but alas not my size, then to check out Sacred Sword, they are in the middle of re-arranging everything. It was good times talking to Cammie, aparently her last reading the reader asked about me by name, saying that she should hang out with me more. So got her cell number and might take in a class she teaches on my next Friday off. I have absolutely no idea what the class is about though, I think some type of Yoga or Healing Arts... seeing as that is what she does. Then I hit up a new store Keller Strings, they had a nice looking upright bass, for a mere $2200. HAHAHAHA I'm so bloody poor. Oh well I had a good time and was glad I went out, saw a nice sword-in-staff, if only it didn't have the blazingly white skull on top, the bottom was pimp quite pointy and silver. Which is good as gold is tacky to me. Oh well still poor as no official roommates yet.

Before I forget

Remember as you worship your fat man who brings you presents around your pagan tree idol, that Christianity picked the 25th of December as the birth of Christ to overlap the Festival of Saturn, in which the ancients drank and engaged in male homosexual relations and then went home and beat their wives. So you really are pleasing the Roman god Saturn by celebrating today.

Funny how everything in religion is about exerting power over others beliefs isn't it?

Back to cleaning

Found thoughts of Wisdom

Found these whilst cleaning.

If fear were removed from religion and political campaigning would any thing be left?

Why can our county not impose power without fear?

Driving through the rearview mirror.

As I grew,
I leared of a lifestyle known as punk.
A trio of men,
from the town of Berkley,
made me grow to realize,
that Nice Guys Finish Last,
but what they failed to mention,
was nice guys finish best.

How much have you learned since we first met?
What all did you forget?
Have you moved on from your previous entanglement?
When will you see the truth inside yourself?

Everday you grow further away from me
Do you even see it is so?
Young as you are, how can you claim what you do?
You say you are as devoted as ever, yet you yearn less for me.
I see all whence I look into your eyes.
My initial appeal has worn off,
yet you still doubt my words.
The time we spend together means ever less to you.
While ever minite I spend thinking about you.
Words I speak merely scratch the surface,
only hinting at how much I feel for you.

Why must I be forever true?
I knew these days would come, but alas can they as well pass?
How is it I know you better than you know yourself?
When will the day come that another catches your eye?
My time is short, so what can I do but love you 'til the end?
Can I hope merely to keep it from being bitter?
Is there a way for me to get you to stay?



I have always known that you would leave me
for you are too young to know what love is.
Deep in my heart I care for you.
My sould still yearns for more
even though that I knew.
I still fell in love with you.
Now I sit alone
merely a shell of a man.
From the moment I first saw you
I could see
that deep inside was the woman for me.
Sadly I also saw
that you were but growing.
Growing up, giving in, becoming a woman.
Now you know more than then,
but you still need to grow.
No more can I hold you back.
You realized how great you are
and now you're gone.

Double Nap

So I crashed on the couch on accident, but then double accident left an away message to call me if someone wanted to. So someone called after about 5.5 hours of sleep, and I just went to bed in my room for another 4 hours, then when I finally got out of bed about 1 hour later, did some cleaning in the "dining room". Got all of my pc on the desk now including the APC Power Back UPS. Then I put down the plastic mat that I have been meaning to put down for about 3 months.... Now I just have a crap load of stuff to sort through, but I did at least get all of the groceries Prophet gave me put away and ran a load of dishes. I have given myself until 9 to clean then I will go pay a few bills, well mail two and pay one. Plus deposit my paycheck and possible another one as well. Depends if my boss' boss decided to do so. I just called and he did. So now I have to deposit two paycheck and then pay a second bill in town. However, rent and insurance for the vehiculars will be paid. *does a little dance* Plus the bills I am mailing are phone and Energy.

Musicless ride home.

Prophet has all of his stuff moved out of his apartment, but it was really hard for him to go. His culture doesn't allow hugging when someone is leaving, so for all his friends he had to be strong. It was really difficult for him to leave me at the end, because he knows that we don't need words. We are brothers regardless of bloodline. Only then at the end did he get teary eyed. I know that he knows that I can take his burdens, and that because we are brothers that is what made it the hardest for him to go. In honor on the ride home I played no music, for he knew I sacraficed sleep and many other things in the past, not just the past two days, to help him out because I knew he needed it, regardless of whether he told me he did or not. So begins another chapter...

Busy Busy

my days off.... right... working working.. and uh working... today is no different... except that as with many other times it's helping out a friend.

Office

To the office and now I'm back. Reminded of Saturday was I, immediately when called a dork by Amber, because of the gash on my head having less of a story then Saturday night. Therefore it was the most visible sign with the least interesting part. It made me think... hmm.. maybe that's why I'm the man. I'm the man, but without a woman. What's that old saying? All the good ones are taken?

Too Noisy

Well I tried to go to sleep for about 1/2 hour, but her breathing is way too noisy for the not-too-tired me. Then people started getting ready to leave for work and school, starting the engines and such, so I just gave up. Plus A. thought it was a bad idea, and B. I think she didn't have on a shirt, didn't check. I think I've figured it out though, indifference, that's what it is. I am so tired of her asking me if I hate her, when um OBVIOUSLY NOT! So indifference, I know I can't Love her love her(hehehe random funny). I can love her like a someone special, well to quote myself more than friend, not quite a lover. I have been having mini-throw-up all night, which means my father's acid reflux has hit me. *shakes fist* I am getting too old. Well now that the latest round of almost vomit has come and gone; back to the epiphany of sorts. So I know that I lust for her, but because there is no possible way for her to earn back my trust we can never have a romantic relationship again. Oddly enough though all night I have been reminded of a song... Self Esteem by The Offspring, and wonder if that's what is going to happen, sort of.... not the me waiting for her to go out and such, but the her getting drunk and wanting to well it's the song you know it or you don't... hehe. I need to hurry up on that CDL so that I can move on to a different job. It would be very nice to make that 600 a week and all. Ah how that would set my mind at ease and make getting a house so much easier. Oh well off to pay some bills and drop back into reality.

Tipsy Tina

Well for awhile I think Everytime Christina gets drunk she is going to run back here to me... At least that is what happened tonight. I still don't get it. She has plenty of reason to be mad at me, but she just won't hate me... *shrug* She wants me to just say that everything is okay and we are going out again, but that's not ever going to happen. She has proven herself to be self-serving too many times. I had to laugh when she was telling me that her friends made her feel like she was their mom, when they drink, but she wanted to come take care of me the other night when I was puking up the mucus. Plus I thought about how many times I ended up feeling like her and her friends' dad. Just humor.

Waking Up

I woke up to Dusty and Smitty banging like the po lease on the door. We played some Golden Eye, props to Prophet. Had some good chilli and turn on the heat. Now it'd bloody warm in here. Wish I wasn't sick still. I slept on and off from 6 until they showed up about 7:30 - 8:00. Good times. I remember the phone ringing but there were no messages, and I'm pretty sure the CID says UNKNOWN CALLER, but I can't read it really, plus apparently two people called, but can't tell either numbers or names.

Note to Self

Well I typed this once, but blogger had an error and erased it all so here I go again. If mucus is draining don't be a drinking it lower your tolerance and you'll make your body put more mucus into your stomach which in turn could lead to puking up a fist sized chunk of mucus. Which is not fun to be drunk, and not puking up booze, but your nasty mucus. But I got 40 bucks from Deanna along with a jug of Cider, 30 bucks from the guys, because I ended up driving them around last night. I used the money to put more fuel in the bus and buy some groceries! Now off to cook some chili.

Da Show

Going to da show tonight as security... Ahhh yeah... somebody might need a whuppin.. Good times, picked up Deanna's pool table for her in the bus. Pissed off all the honkies at the Wally world. F' them... hehehe Show at 7:30-Bottleneck closes, then After party more than likely ALL RIGHT good day off right there....

Joys

So according to the research I may have scurvy, Scorbutus, meningitis, or more random things including TB. Happy Joys!

Good Times...

Sweet Band O' Mine

WOOOOooooo OOOOOOOOO OOOOOOO Sweet Band O' Myyyy yine!

Hehe tonight at the Bottleneck lookout for JoJo, Cameron, and Eric plus dos mas, for the GNR cover band Sweet Band O' Mine!

*crosses fingers*

Hoping to get in on the list if not I have to pay for me ticket and me booze!

That would suck, but be worth it.

now off to research Malnutrition symptoms....

Awesomeness

My mom sent this to my aunt and I didn't even know it existed, it's from like last summer:

http://www.democracycaravan.org/registering_kansas.htm

Oh man that is kickin..

Return from the place of work!

So I tripped this guy Dan out by giving him a ride after work to where he was going because his ex f'n left him at the station, he was bloody happy. Then we I get home I had a case of the blondes, you know the malnutrition blonde hair.... Freaking A that whomps... I need more lemons.....

Stomach

*grumbling stomach*
Shouldn't have had those Doritos.... ooooooOOOoooOOOOoooo
testing went alright only 10 minutes over and I only messed up testing one steps... so I have to be extra leaniant on those.. people moving my requirements pages around... *shakes fist*

Now I have to go to work and do Karate paperwork while dealing with drunk retardos

but as the song by space ghost goes:

Hey Retardos
....

something something something

.....

moisten your dreams with man urine

.....

something something something

....

It was funny at the time...

Peace out

*groan*

Freakin A I hurt! off to bed go I now.... I finished grading papers not letting anyone go higher than a stripe or making anyone stay back and deciding to revamp my way of teaching next semester. I also have this weird urge to play in an angry punk band or just beat the living crap out of some random person.... damn upbringing.

Lyrical typing for future reference

1.Undercover Brother - White She Devil - Bringing nothing but my hopes and my dreams....


You gave it all,
took it all away.

Now I have nothing,
want nothing,
not even you.

I lost my hopes,
lost my dreams,
because of you.

Why did you,
complicate what we had?
It really couldn't have been so bad,
little sleep did I get,
on that night with you.

Take it back,
yes I would,
why don't you?

2.

Is it possible to love someone and hate their idea(l)s?
Or is that just not knowing what love is?

3.

We need order, but if out of chaos comes better order, why not support chaos?

Down with the government of the USA.
They say one thing, but mean another.
You just can't big brother.

4.

When will honkies learn
breeding's not their forte`?

How do you know what's right if all you ever tell someone is that they are wrong?

5.

What is a holiday, but a HOLY day?
Why must our government only respect the majority?
Our government is religion!

6.
parody:
There must be a million ways to kill another...

Knock some sense into you.

Apparently no matter how many times you write it down or tell some people when you can and when you can't do stuff they don't listen, like my boss who scheduled me both tomorrow and Thursday nights, when I have to teach class both nights and they are both testing nights. One of them I won't even be in town until at least 11:30 and she scheduled me at 10... yeah and when I started I gave her my availibility and it hasn't changed in the 6 other times I've given it to her either verbally or written down. I am so close to just beating the sense into her, just like smitty, he is so stupid that he doesn't understand the severity of the situation until you knock the crap outta him. Man Lawrence is full of so many retards.

Where I come from:

1. people listen to what you say not what they think you said.
2. if you act the fool people treat you like it.
3. if you fuck up someone else's shit, you accept that when they find out your shit gets fucked up.
4. if you deserve an asswhippin you take it.
5. you help out your neighbors.
6. the police are the furthest thing from your mind.
7. you don't call the law you get even.
8. if the cops are called you know the law, and have you story backed up.
9. people would die for you.

Where I am:
1. people only hear what they want.
2. if you act the fool people applaud you.
4. if you fuck shit up, no one can touch your shit because apparently it's insane to expect retalition.
5. if you deserve an ass whoopin you run as far away as you can.
6. you call the cops immediately.
7. if you get even they call the cops.
8. if you are white you get off easy as shit, but if you are not you get ass raped in gladiator school.
9. people would sell your life to save theirs.

My how the "real world" seems so fake.....

You and Me

I am me and you are ye... Is this not true? According to the Lawrence philosophy though I am wrong and you are right. Craziness yes? Keep your "Holy"days to yourself, and government will be separated from church, but this will never be. Church and State are nearly one and the same as seen by the last general election. In my opinion you are wrong. This, contrary to popular assumption, does not mean I am right, just that you are wrong. The new shirt designs we came up with for the band include the old school uncle sam finger and just one word WRONG! or LISTEN! If people just assumed that they needed to listen rather than babble on, then maybe we could get along. Maybe? Three lyrics have been running through my head for awhile now, plus much more of the song Ms. Jackson by Outkast, but anyways the main lyrics are: Forever never seems that long until you're grown, I'm sorry Ms. Jackson I've never meant to make your daughter cry I apologize a trillion times, and lastly Me and your daughter got something going on, you say it's puppy love we say it's fully grown. Good Times. Went to the office today, I hate driving, some confusion happened so when I got home I had to fax a copy of a curriculum to a Yellow Belt in St. Joe, then twice the office ladies called, Christina, and then some random lady named Mara. Way to many messages for me. All I have to say is all compliments are null and void, everyone should just realize I suck and deserve nothing, much like I have realize. I need a little help from myself.. hehehe a puppy would be nice to come home to everyday this apt is so empty, basically something here just to love me and ask nothing of me but to cuddle lesirely.

Cruisin'

Cruised a bit in the bus before I went to work tonight, stopped by the T-bell saw the crew. Granticus, Kayla, James, and Carlos all were doing well. Good Times at work got some food from the Hostess guy and the Deli Express guy. They rock and get mad props. Helped Prophet out last night and he tried, unsucessfully, to give me money. About 3am I checked the phone messages and had a rather cryptic one on there.... Got a possible offer to play in a band with a stripper that is stopping stripping soon to be a singer in said band. She is nice and comes in to the store frequently. Had almost a day off yesterday with waking up on time and doing fun stuff like playing golden eye and alpha centauri. Have to work a weird 6 - 12 shift tonight but it's all O.T. in fact I got 3.5 O.T. already plus they owe me 3.5 hours from two weeks ago... ahhh yeah! Shit I need to do my testing paperwork before I go to the office today!

NO Hook

Hey ya, All to blame, Always, turn up the radio, don't wanna be,

I need a song with no hook.

Curse of Suburbia

Many sociologist have stated that my generation has no great struggle no uniting factor, no great social movement and are trapped between. What no one realizes is that the spread of the suburban lifestyle contributes directly to this. Those brought up in this style have not enough common sense to go to either side of the middle of this suburbia, but yet rather than learn more from less fear, they develop more fears than even the ones who could die at any moment have. Yet at the same time their mental problems increase and they create more diseases for the least endangered sect of our f'd up society. This only proliferates our society staying messed up. If mommy and daddy both are the same how can they not blame themselves for their children turning out just like them... Oh that's right that whole fear from suburbia of finding yourself at fault; when instead you could blame someone else.... Drama Queens should die!

Helping a Friend

Help Jose today with his Social Sec. Benefits application online and good times at breakfast. I saw an awesome hat at work today on one of the regulars, Crown Royal lim. ed. I need to remember to write down my lyrics when I come up with them... Drinking and youth are greatly related, people blame many things on youth and many on being drunk, I think that drinking is a way for many people to get back to their youth. When they were young they could do so many crazy things and get them brushed off, but now they have resposibility and need an excuse.

Wicked

I thought it was 6 when I woke up but it was only 5! Awesomeness. Except that I am still uber tired, however, I must try and get my sleep schedule back. I couldn't get ahold of dirty ole Joe to see where breakfast will be tomorrow. Work will be good times tonight hopefully since I am not so tired as yesterday. I actually woke up in the middle of my sleep because I had a freaking charlie horse, cursed soda not keeping me hydrated, but awake. Since I was so tired I had to drink some pop to stay awake last night. It was weird though I was hallucinating random things and a couple of times my legs stopped working and I almost fell down. I met a lady who had gone to private school and actually cared about non-individualism and was for anti-capitalism. She was totally for the giant reset button of my dreams.

Oi vey

SoooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooooo tired, I need to sleep so bad. G.D. work. So very tired.... David stopped in today, saying he should have monies. Hopefully. shoot.



*BANG*


hehehe. I'm ten!

Some might say I'm still evil....

That's all really, just the title.... on top of that I got A-Hole, deuche, f'er, and a myriad of other things on my away message... Curse my controlling abusive self.... ahhh the language of the weak.... *sarcasm* How little I care to walk home a whole 5 blocks.... People get so worked up over nothing... Crazy...

Too many friends

I have too many friends, I have learned so much from them that in effect I see my faults to come as soon as I meet someone new. I am constantly studying everything. I have become a centered being, not with myself but with community. I see a path that I must follow, but I also see that I am not the one to lead down that path. For I know that if I were to take the lead, that all would be lost. While I have the capabilities I have the corruptability. I also know people when I meet them. If only I could meet like minded souls. The big picture and lesson of life is that we are wrong and that we need to learn more than we know, because we are all young, yet old in the fact that knowledge is all around us but we limit our intake, and the intake of everyone else to that knowledge. Ingrained in us is the capability to do so much, but then our soceity is designed to keep us second guessing ourselves, and that at the same time it is wrong to second guess yourself. So all we a left with is a double fear, first that we are wrong, and second that we are wrong for thinking we are wrong. I see myself doing things wrong all the time and that I permantly messed up the rest of my life in my youth for not knowing the full consequences of my childish actions. I have gone past the point of repairing myself to the fullest. Relationships come and go in my life, because of the way I am. My view is every commitment is equal whether it is to a stranger or to a lifelong companion. The fact is our youth has purposefully been drawn away from actual morals and instilled with false ones. Capitalism and moral values can never co-exist. I know now that unless I help others in the short time I have left that we are doomed, and yet I know I cannot do it within my lifetime, for eventually it will end for everyone, all I can hope to do is change the minds of the next generation and hope that they learn faster than I. Community, Listening, Caring, Pride, Compassion, Giving, Loving, and Hoping are meant for all days not just your false religions designated ones America, Learn that because I say you're wrong doesn't mean I'm right, but it does still mean you're wrong. Effort must be put forth today for tomorrow and for eternity, regardless of what happens to us something will be here. When you realize you have nothing... You can gain everything... When you realize you are insignificant... You learn that others are not because of their classification in society, but because they matter as much if not more than you.

Sitting too long

I went to get up to pee and my knees almost decided not to work.... freakin A my body is old.

HUH?

I wonder since I call him by his nickname how many people think Prophet is in my head? So now I have given as many songs to the correct bands that I could, even made sure that they were all spelled the same, did the same with albumn, and now I am onto genre.... WOoOoOoO.... Bored insomniacs... hehe... Or borderline Scitzo hehehe who knows. Mad Greek is for lunch. Freakin' nobody on ye ole AOL IM... shucks. Apparently the Beastie Boys are "Christian Gangsta Rap"... roight! I have to pee... hmm... my mind wanders a lot... I believe you but my Tommy Gun Don't... hehehe good times.... ALT ROCK BITCHES.. DIG IT or DIG OUT!

People Do This all the time

Going through my 16.7 Gigabytes of music and this song made me rock out while changing all the artist to the correct one and fixing the titles! What a joy.... Or not so much.... Freakin Prophet and his suggestion now with the insomnia kickin in I decide to do it....

Nerf Herder-Sorry

Sorry we broke up, sorry I missed you
Sorry I wanted only to kiss you
Sorry I promised to love you forever
Made you feel guilty oh when you left me
Sorry I showed up at your party
Sorry I drank up all the Bacardi
Sorry I puked up on your bedspread
Sorry I wanted to be your boyfriend again

What can I do?
It's over it's over it's over it's over
What can I do?
I am the loser

Sorry I saw you and I heard birds sing
Sorry I touched you and I heard bells ring
Sorry I jacked off outside of your window
While you were sleeping, I thought you'd never know
Sorry I showed up at your wedding
Sorry I tried so hard to get in
Sorry I screwed up your picture
Sorry I had sex with your sister

What can I do?
It's over, it's over, it's over, it's over
What can I do?
I am the loser

Sorry we broke up, sorry I missed you
Sorry I wanted only to kiss you
Sorry I promised to love you forever
Made you feel guilty oh when you left me
Sorry I showed up at your dinner
Sorry I said those things to your father
Sorry I crashed through your window on acid
Sorry I made a mess
Sorry I bled to death

What can I do?
It's over it's over it's over it's over
What can I do?
I am the loser

Poo

I love having food, I get to poo! It's always odd not having to when I don't get to eat for days. It's like not breathing type of weird, but now OH YEAH! Well the guy for January from Texas said he would be sending me some money for the deposit soon!!!! WOO WHO. I had a call from some guy today from St. Joe, but he wanted me to pick him up to show him the apartment from the bus station, and he was kind of weird. He was telling me way too much and asking the same. *shudders* Crazy guy on disability.

Woo

Testing in St. Joe didn't get but 1/2 tested for Kata and One Steps, but all of them did get tested for Kata at least. Something to be happy about. I was almost late that sucked, and now I have to mess up the sleep again and go to the office in the morning which means I have to get all my paperwork done tonight. Tomorrow I have to make some calls to parents about stuff that they ordered, go to lunch, test my Advanced Class, and then go to the Gas Station. Oi vey and Saturday I have enlisted the help of Prophet to clean up David mess. I really enjoy my answering machine message now, good ole Purple Haze.

My Back

It freaking hurts! Too much work and no sleepy fun times. Kata Testing tonight, and then Testing testing tomorrow. I might have to work a 16 hour shift next Friday which sux. I have to remind my boss about the law again the next time I see her as she tried to bitch at me for turning off the Christmas music at night today. The last thing is I got most of Brandon's room clean and bathroom, now I think I have to clean out David's as well, seeing as I haven't seen him since he was all shifty about how he was going to get me my money. I wish people would say their names on my answering machine apparently I know like 50 million me's!

Mein Augen

Fuer mein leben! Mein Augen gefaeult mir nicht sehr! Ich schaulfe nicht oft oder gross. Wiedersehn, ich musst lehrer schoen gebin.

Clean Machine

I'm just a clean'n' machine and I don't work fo nobahdy but me, yeeaaah me! Work was fun Kitty and Glen stopped by and they might move in with me! oh yeah good times that might take care of the other roommate who has said he would have money multiple times for me, and now I might have to drive to Hutchinson to track his ass down. *goddamn Americans* Well my progs is done doing what they do off to clean before I head up to the office.

Food

I don't have to make my poor ass diet drink today, because yesterday the Deli Express guy gave me like 18 sandwhiches. *rubs belly* Good food in my tummy! I forgot to go to the office today, because the possible roommate called earlier than I thought he would and it threw off my sleep schedule. So now I have to mess it up again tomorrow and go to the office early.

Heart Attack

My night started with a call to 911 b/c some guy was having a minor heart attack. Decided to try and teach some seminars/assemblies for the colleges and high schools about common sense self-defense. Especially with the recent string of sexual assaults in the city. Really have not much to go over, just waiting to send a fax and I cannot sleep. I want to get a CDL and make 600 a week so bad!

Waiting Around

Killing time until I go down to the courthouse to get a court date set for Brandon and myself... Hurrah! Yesterday was yet another series of naps, neighbor wanted to use the phone, Prophet called a couple of times, and then had to get up and go to work so I slept from 10am until 9pm, with the series of interruptions. Work was odd that's fer darn sure. Still time to go. The apartment is about 60 degrees, but in my room I plugged in my space heater. Hopefully that will keep the bills lower. I have a lot of food in comparison to the other day... I got the box from Ethan's mom, and then at work a bunch went out of date, plus the stuff from Prophet, and then the Trail mix. I hope I get a court date soon, man I hate having to be a bitch. According to Prophet though one of my most memorable quotes is: "You want to be a bitch? Well I can be a bitch too!" So I guess Brandon's got it coming. I have to go to the office tomorrow and I think I shall go input that paperwork right now, before I forget. Good Times!

What I Say

Have everyone you know and their momma leave a comment, that's what I SAY! NUFF SAID!*bonus if you know who said that all the time*

Workin it

Work was not to bad going to b-fast with D.O.J. at ye ole IHOP. *twirls fingers* I am thinking over in my head the advice that was given Thursday night on Loveline: those who are constantly worrying about the other cheating or doing something wrong always turn out to be the one who does those things. True I guess is the fact that I worry about others not having enough and BAM I don't have enough... It works... wicked awesome. So I wonder.. if I changed to worrying that people have too much... would I have in turn have too much? Hehe pipe dreams! Sheesh I hate Religion and Government and most of all SUBURBIA! Butch said it best!

Lasagne

Missed the Office party to go help someone out, but I did get about 1/2 of a lasagne, a very nice one too. I also saw part of LOTR 3. Well now to jet off to work!

Jump in Let's Go

Everybody sit back, enjoy the show. Everybody gets high, everybody get low. Wow words to get out the car after class! So I kicked out Brandon today, possibly have a replacement in January, but who knows... I filled out all the small claims paperwork, and then bam I got there 5 minutes late because I was waiting to get more of Brandon's information before I turned it in. *shakes fist* Now I have to wait until Monday to get that started officially and it will cost me a reimbursable 60 dollars. Oh well garnished wages will pay my bills, and the retard tried to tell me he didn't have to pay... HAHAHA for someone going into "business" aka pyramid scheme, he should really learn about multiple legally binding contracts. So I am suing in small claims for about 3,500 plus all future intrest! oh yeah! After ten days of it not being paid in full I can garnish at most by law (last I checked) one-half his wages. which he may lose his new place because of, but like I care. As all my friends know I am the nicest and the meanest (once you earn my ire) member of FireBush! Class sucked, only two new Kata patches to hand out this semester so I think I am going to break Kata down even more and only teach one kata per semester and summer they can pick which new one they want to learn more. The staff class went well though.

So...

Yep didn't really get that settled like I wanted to, but now all the computers are up and running. I am going to have to print out my fanciful lesson plans, and some bills for the roommates today, but first I am going to help out Prophet with his car. Good times for all.