wow

superbly tired was I, little sleep did I get this week, but soon I say, SOON!

a little pain

Stupid cat attacked me whence I made it go back inside yesterday.... clawed the bejebus out of my underarm..... freakin' A

Constantly seraching

I feel I am constantly searching for a wife, yet, always willing to settle on that which I don't want. If they have Drive Off license plates I think they should have Saboteur license plates for girls that denote those who sabotage relationships. I think it's all b/c I let the one I think was perfect get away.... My settling is brought about of course by my low self esteem, and it seems I settle on all aspects of my life. I just agree, stupid brain o' mine. Oddly enough the only person in my life that I can see myself marrying at this juncture; I've never dated or kissed or anything like that.... Yet the person I'm seeing is leaving soon; so I have to be all honest with myself about that and not get attached....

*panting*

freaking A it's hot in here, but those potatoes were yummy yet again.

Finally saw my new roommate since she moved in for the first time.

Stoopid Brain

Well now I have random urges to cry for no apparent reason, although I don't feel depressed it seems that that is a large syptom of it.... *shakes fist* I don't even know why I have these urges freaking retarded emotions....

random sighting

The other day at lunch with the mums I saw, and was waited on by Marilyn.... long time but wow she was in training to be a Para Educator and now she's a waitress at Buffalo Bob's.... ouch...eh now she's married and at a crappier job... dang..

ShepCo!!!!!!!!!!!

So I got hired on and I start in two weeks at the ShepCo, no more busses, however, a temporary paycut is happening, but OH WELL, tools and a shop. *kookie dance*

missin' the hair

Hopefully I can earn a name whence the new hair comes in, but lookin' @ the old vids made me yearn for it... alas! Vids

Update Karate Site

So I added happy fun times videos to the karate site of me in all black, back with the long hair doing a couple of katas. Oddly enough, watching made me able to see why some might find me attractive.... Gotta be the karate though...

Finally Updated

So apparently I have posted 333 times before this one, as they finally got the counter thingy working again, but anywho. I should have new glasses by this time next week, albeit they look almost like my old ones, just without the bottom metal. Crazy top only frame glasses. Still thinking about contacts though. Freaking A, I just got an exploder off my face, haven't had one of those for a long time, an actual pimple instead of sist. But man when I popped it I could taste blood in my mouth... *shakes head violently* I'm sure there is more lurking in there too, but all that was coming out was blood. Crazyness. Nothing to do but stay awake until 4 and then showering, and off to work at the bum crack O dawn.

Crazy Smitty

Oh yeah got him puking drunk last night, he said today that he learned last night what praying to the porcelian god really means.

Smitty Day

I think I'm doing good I can barely feel my weiner!

the best smitty quote all night, however, tonight may yield better results!

Certified

Had a great idea for a shirt line today.. Certified Killer with that burst star symbol on the front and then random sayings on the back. Such as curious about pain? touch me for more.

yep

decided I need someone who has all their baggage in check, and is done being wild and crazy.... damn peeps my age.. hell they tell me I have schizo, schizoid, paranoid schizophrenia, Split Personality Disorder, Multiple Personality Disorder, Chronic Depression, Insomnia, bouts of Narcolepsy, and a myriad of other things, but do I let it bother me hell no.... oh and anger control issues... but that's why I have meditation and spirituality to keep me defensive rather than offensive... other wise many many bodies would be found.... or at least missing....

Sake'

After the movie in KC we stopped in at a Berbelgilia(or whatever) just on the Missouri side so Jose' could get a wine, and I got a couple things of sake', one I haven't had before and one in a larger bottle.... Good times.

why won't the sleeping come easier

I get so freakin' tired and then wam bam no sleep when I get the chance. however I did have a good lyric today that spawned some ideas Apathy is the end.

Happy Fun Sleep Time

Snuggling rules!

Busy-ness

Today I have to get an oil change, mow a yard, pack some stuff, attempt to convince my mom to get me new glasses, go to the office, and teach class in St. Joe... Good thing I slept until about 3 okay 7 pm yesterday.

That time of the month

Stupid bill time, just dolled out some more money today. Three cc's each got 50, and then my water bill got almost 40. I really need to get an oil change too.... *shakes fist* Late for work by 12 minutes today, but do to the fact that I still got everyone on time, Ruth, in a fit of ultimate coolness, neglected to see me arrive late.... *little kookie dance*

BP

So I used my internet bill pay today for Aquila and el Broadband Sunflower-o.... Peeps always wanting my money. So bloody tired. stewped needing sleep.

TP

Tom Petty that is, was freaking awesome, as always. Best seats in the lawn thanks to Micky. We had both forgotten to eat before and then again on the way up there so we finally remembered that we might want some food right as we got back to Lawrence; so off to the Shake 'E' Steak we went. mmm didn't even want to kill anyone, however, I did think about how to, just didn't want to.... Crazy anti-crowd thoughts....

G'day

At the park I got to explain my connection of Vampires to Americans to my student. The whole old stories romaticized the killers of Vampires and then Americans romanticize the Vampire, a blood sucking, life robbing, forever alive, powerful figure, that merely live off others and think of themselves of being better. e.g Americans are Vampires that's why they love them. Oh I decided that it's all Winona Ryder's fault that I like dark haired, dark clothes wearing, busty white girls.... all because of Beetlejuice... and b/c of knowing white people that I like non-white girls.

ooooooooooo that smell

I wonder if there has ever been a scientific study as to why it is one of the only fluids that after washing the smell still remains. However, I am thinking that most bodily fluids are like that as when used by species to mark territory... I mean if a bobcat sprays a tree and all other bobcats stay away, how good would it be if after every rain he had to spray again?

Near Stroke

So I am so out of shape I almost had a heat stroke on the way home from work. I had to put myself into a tub of lukewarm water to keep from dying... My whole body was red and I was ready to pass out.... stupid malnutrition eating away at my muscles...

Not so much hitting

So the usual lady who hits on me at Karate class didn't do it so much just told me she is finally legally divorced. I did have a good time at class, and we didn't turn on the lights at all by class consensus, however next week I think after Green and above class we will have to put at least one on.

Lake times

Went out to the lake and swam for about half an hour until my ankle started hurting kind of fierce. Decided since I was out there I would go see my parentals. Helped my dad with fixing the Antennas after the storm knocked 'em out of whack. Had some good dinner, and my mom gave me some food and more tupperware... oh and another VCR. woot! good times.

Don't knows whys I like it so much but I do

Joan written by Butch Walker

Joan moved away to Colorado
Said she found God and a boyfriend as well
One that one hit her or make her feel shallow
There's a lot to learn about Joan

Before I moved in Joan had a fling with the landlord
So she got to stay here for free
And I'm not a genius but I figured out
There's a lot to learn from Joan

And after all this time, you were waiting on the ride
To stop at the place where they slowly misplaced your life...
Go get it right

I went to the closet to get dressed for work
When I spotted a box I had not seen before
With all kinds of letters that never got sent to a guy in Colorado since 1994
And I know it's wrong
but I sat and opened in no certain order
A letter or two she talked about blisters and bruises of anger
And she bought a handgun to learn how to shoot
And the last letter said that she had to get out
But I couldn't make out the rest of the note
From the blood stains all over the page of the letters
There's a lot to learn
And there's a lot I learned about Joan

And after all this time, you were waiting on the ride
To stop at the place where you slowly misplaced your life
Oh and after all this time, you were waiting on the ride
To stop at the place where they slowly misplaced your life...
Go get it right
Go get it right
Go get it right
Go get it right

Well then

Sat around all day no call from Mehboob and I couldn't find his celly # so eh well, played a full game of Alpha Centauri.... listed to the Buzz, heard DGRE's name on there for Saturday at the Hurricane, which is always cool. I did manage to shower though... I think I might head out to the lake and swim, but alas no one to go with. So I don't know if I'll get that motivated....

I am however getting pretty far along deciding on my 5 all time favorite albumns though in no particular order:

Butch Walker - Left of Self-Centered

Ultimate Fakebook - Open Up and Say Awesome

KISS - Destroyer, maybe Dressed to Kill, or perhaps even.. Love Gun.. so hard to choose.

Cheap Trick - Cheap Trick

Corporate Avenger - Freedom Is a State of Mind


and honestly who doesn't dig go go girls?*hint CT*

Good night

some random old hippie bought me a tequila shot, and I had some good drinks, lost a game of pool, but still found out I'm invited to a party on Friday and perhaps will get in free Saturday.....

I think I got myself a date...

I do think so, but am still quite unsure... Well that's what you get when you inexperienced in social definitions. As I explained to Deanna that it doesn't go White belt, Yellow, Green, Blue, Brown, Black, and then how to date girls.... Tomorrow I have been invited to go with Mehboob fishing, and I believe I shall call that fool up on the morrow. So good times not killing the retarded neighbors letting their moronic kids blow stuff up last night. So I guess I have lunch with me mums Thursday instead. Then tonight I gots to find out the info about the concert via the pimpin' D.G.R.E. bassist/my favorite, and basically only, bartender.

Jose' and dinner

Went with Jose to Walk on Water at Liberty Hall, very nice, and I much enjoyed the ending. Then went over grabbed some boxes and packed up some of the stuff at Deanna's, then made dinner. Some nice hamburgers, Mashed Potatoes, and since no green beans I made corn. Then of course her 7pm turned into 9:15 b/c she got caught up at the casino and then ran out of gas on the way home... hehehe. I'm becomming more and more sure that Jen enjoys my company as she has been emailing me quite a bit. I am not minding that at all..

a little bit o' de packing

Well I used up all the boxes I had brought over for Deanna, packing up Steven's room, and there is still stuff in there, but I did get all the hot wheels, stuffed animals, dresser, and closet cleaned out, so basically all that's left in there is his bed, the shelves by it, and these random mardi gras things. Been doing laundry and listening to some cds whilst doing it. Class is coming up here in a bit, and then Jose' and myself are going to Liberty Hall for a movie.