Not so deep thoughts
After a year at the new gig, I have noticed that our leadership beyond our team level, and up, do not seem to understand what it is that we do day-to-day, and the needs to adequately accomplish our mission. After a number of times of bringing things up with solutions to enable the teams to move forward and support the number of customers they wish to have, no progress seems to have been made. Our manager, of all our teams, has even thrown myself and my team lead under the bus as sacrifices, as well as, simply played on his phone when we bring up items of dire need during meetings, being overtly dismissive of our problems. At the very top of our organization, tools are the least of the focus, with simply bringing on more customers, all while claiming to be able to handle many things we are not able to. Although, in the latest meeting with the over all teams' manager, he even noted he has tired of lying to customers, he made more false statements that continue my inability to believe his word.
Our team has been rather depleted on the morale front for the last few months, as a result of many problems going unfixed and concerns brushed aside. Even our last meeting showed that leadership doesn't pay attention to the teams responsible for the day-to-day promises we give our customers by refusing to follow the company's core values, especially with regards to transparency.
After finally having my one-on-one with my team lead, and learning that everyone looks to me for guidance most of the time, and my understandable anger at the lack of progress, or even signs of caring about making progress, has our lowest analyst likely complaining to the teams' manager and his boss, as he is friends with them both, I am seriously thinking of starting a job search in earnest.
As I thought about his words, I realized that although I consult with other team members from time-to-time, I have come as far on the tools as can be expected, and the investigations we have gone through haven't really brought about any new learning opportunities for me. Plus, any internal tools we have developed, I have been the oversight for, and not really learned anything knew there. I realized that I have not had any mentoring, only friendship. After dealing with the other teams' inability to clean up after themselves, and the rest of the organization failing to take any responsibility, or ownership, of tasks, I have said multiple times, I am tired of coming to work to be everyone's dad. Especially since I am one of the few who doesn't even have kids.
With our opportunities for training being minimal, and benefits not really keeping up with promises, as well as, my team lead bringing up my salary a few too many times in our one-on-one, I am taking the time to seriously consider what I want to do in the future, and how soon I no longer wish to be a part of this company. Though my plan is to have all of my interest-bearing debt paid off by October, I am comfortable enough that I could pack up and find a new job just as easily, and even with a return to my previous salary range, having a company that actually invests, and has people above my skill range is much more enticing. However, I do contemplate simply signing up for teaching, peace corps, or a job that is 100% in another country. Many things to think about in the next few weeks and months about where I want to go in life.
Our team has been rather depleted on the morale front for the last few months, as a result of many problems going unfixed and concerns brushed aside. Even our last meeting showed that leadership doesn't pay attention to the teams responsible for the day-to-day promises we give our customers by refusing to follow the company's core values, especially with regards to transparency.
After finally having my one-on-one with my team lead, and learning that everyone looks to me for guidance most of the time, and my understandable anger at the lack of progress, or even signs of caring about making progress, has our lowest analyst likely complaining to the teams' manager and his boss, as he is friends with them both, I am seriously thinking of starting a job search in earnest.
As I thought about his words, I realized that although I consult with other team members from time-to-time, I have come as far on the tools as can be expected, and the investigations we have gone through haven't really brought about any new learning opportunities for me. Plus, any internal tools we have developed, I have been the oversight for, and not really learned anything knew there. I realized that I have not had any mentoring, only friendship. After dealing with the other teams' inability to clean up after themselves, and the rest of the organization failing to take any responsibility, or ownership, of tasks, I have said multiple times, I am tired of coming to work to be everyone's dad. Especially since I am one of the few who doesn't even have kids.
With our opportunities for training being minimal, and benefits not really keeping up with promises, as well as, my team lead bringing up my salary a few too many times in our one-on-one, I am taking the time to seriously consider what I want to do in the future, and how soon I no longer wish to be a part of this company. Though my plan is to have all of my interest-bearing debt paid off by October, I am comfortable enough that I could pack up and find a new job just as easily, and even with a return to my previous salary range, having a company that actually invests, and has people above my skill range is much more enticing. However, I do contemplate simply signing up for teaching, peace corps, or a job that is 100% in another country. Many things to think about in the next few weeks and months about where I want to go in life.
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