Constantly seraching

I feel I am constantly searching for a wife, yet, always willing to settle on that which I don't want. If they have Drive Off license plates I think they should have Saboteur license plates for girls that denote those who sabotage relationships. I think it's all b/c I let the one I think was perfect get away.... My settling is brought about of course by my low self esteem, and it seems I settle on all aspects of my life. I just agree, stupid brain o' mine. Oddly enough the only person in my life that I can see myself marrying at this juncture; I've never dated or kissed or anything like that.... Yet the person I'm seeing is leaving soon; so I have to be all honest with myself about that and not get attached....

*panting*

freaking A it's hot in here, but those potatoes were yummy yet again.

Finally saw my new roommate since she moved in for the first time.