bedmates

Sword, and bedside knives and daggers... mmm good times.

11111

That's the mileage on the odometer the other day whence I had a random urge to check it in the Cobalt. I really don't want to do paperwork, but alas I must get it done.

Engine's OUT

Well the engine is OUT of the wagon.... now just to the rest of it...

Took today, and then went to see mom bowl with friends... good times

I was the conversation piece, I'm sure, for someone's, at least one, day. On the way back from pulling the engine, since my coat was ultra dirty, as was all of me, I turned it inside out and then took off my shirt, sitting on my coat whilst driving home. When I got into town I recalled that I had on no shirt so I just went with it. Turned up the toons.... which just happened to be Discovery Channel by the Bloodhound Gang, and kicked in the speakers.... good times I'm sure for all..

The Jayhawker

what a bad name for a restaurant.... and bad restaurant... f'd up my steak 3 friggin times 3

went to da store and bought me some pepperoni and cheese plus a jug o' sake' instead after me and Jose ate.... sorta

mmmmmmmmmm tired.......

Random and Abrupt

just the way I like it.

Hugs are

Good, hugs are good!

but alas I cannot sleep

The Cleansing Vom...

It's that last one you have for that period, and just know that hey everythings out.. it actually leaves you feeling good, instead of weakened. I had mine about 1am Went ahead and went to work, though I probably could have used another day off. Only a slight headache, but other than that A OK! Just nothing too strenuous at work tonight... Also I don't have to work tomorrow morning so woo who for me.

If it's coming up

That means I'm down...

Sickness, missed work Thursday, still went and taught class.... but still nothing staying down but maybe fluids...

quick flips

Awhile back found I'm not getting to go to Germany.... which is alright some underprivledged Natives get to go in my stead. However, my bro says he might be able to fly me out to Cali, or AZ and kick it. Then even possibility to go to Japan sometime in the near future.

AND WTF

Brooks and Dunn are playing with the ROLLING STONES, the mf'n rolling stones!!!!!!! What the bloody 'ell.

Warped TOUR

is a must this year.

JOAN JETT AND THE BLACKHEARTS ARE SCHEDULED TO BE ON IT!!!!!!!!!

A further review

Let it be, let it be... ah good post that was

I say party you say bus
PARTY-(BUS)
PARTY-(BUS)
PARTY-(BUS)

a double posting... Vain v. Honest.... wonder if I meant to do that?

http://firebushbass.blogspot.com/2005/02/marlas-words-ring-true.html

I saw a bumper sticker that says the truth hurts, but that's life. I thought to myself the truth isn't what hurts it is the lie it abolishes....strangely I followed that by posting NWA's Boyz N the Hood

One of my moms left one o' me dads, and I gave away my hair....

Words of Wisdom?:
How many relationship do we engage in just because we don't want to be alone?

feel good
One of the students last night gave me a stuffed dolphin, not that I asked for one, but it was cute of them to give it to me. The kids always have a way of making one feel good about oneself.

I have written of many dorky times.... many...

I had almost forgotten about the crashing of the bike... Last February

I have had a lot of dreams that are kind of strange.. forgotten about most of them however.

Mighty fine list o' goals!
http://firebushbass.blogspot.com/2005/04/subs.html


Ah whence I bought my old man braces... that was a good day.

The near JB... Jail Bait that is.... wow that was a misleading time....
http://firebushbass.blogspot.com/2005/05/near-jb.html

I especially like the 20's part
http://firebushbass.blogspot.com/2005/05/realizations.html

Albequerque and then food poisoning... what a way to come back...

The making of the karate website was on here.

The amazement of the US Open karate tournament... young uhns with nothing but martial arts time.... lucky

The trip to the food pantry that I should make more often...

Ah smitty being 21 hahaha good times....


Check out this title:
Constantly seraching

aw me and not using spell check... or minor dyslexia... whatever

Summing up the eons:
also I want to make a song around the Fight Club quote:

I wanted to put a bullet in the brain of every panda that wouldn't screw to save its species.


Mitska the Bunny cannot be broken!!!!!!!!!!!
and don't you forget it!


a time or a 100 of me being an arse were written down

The finding out that the gov't distrust me... ME!... okay probably has a good reason

WOW there is a full song on there and not just the lyrical ramblings for once:
http://firebushbass.blogspot.com/2005/10/all-but-lost.html

The realization almost a year afterwards that I had turned OFF comments....

quite a bit of drinking posts....


My brothers good question:
You have two options - you can save the life of the
>> > President, or you can shoot a dramatic Pulitzer Prize winning
>> > photo, documenting the death of one of the world's most
>> > famous men.
>> >
>> > THE QUESTION
>> >
>> > Here's the question, and please give an honest answer.......
>> > Would you select high contrast color film, or would you go

>> with the classic simplicity of black and white?

The couple of times Ian returned were good times... good times...

Pictures with the camera!

All in all... I am a Rambling man

A review

started with going to then did break up back in '04

like the 5th post check this awesome line:

As UFB said, "Do I dare, do you care?" - Downstairs/Arena Rocks one of many song I am listening to. Music it beats the hell out of religion!

Lengthy post have happened WOW have they happened......


Old man bones seen as far back as post 6-ish:

Dear givers please get me a new skeletal system for a present. *grabs back in pain* Eh this dumb thing or my half retarded internet won't let me post a comment on someone else's page... *shakes fist* aren't shooting pains fun?

Fear is what kills the soul!

Full of good ones:
http://firebushbass.blogspot.com/2004/10/rally_04.html

Which is one of the many problems I find with American culture, we hear but we don't listen. We read what we see not what is there.

Basically in the grand scheme is not everyone absolutely right and at the same time absolutely wrong?

hehehe here's a funny:

My lack of desire for sexual disease and general shut-in living keeps me out of most situations. I now have role-model status and find myself stopping my normal routine even in the car, realizing a student may see me or their parental unit(s). Responsibility whomps.


I had forgotten how long Drawn Together had been on it was mentioned in a post on...27.10.04 WOW!

Apparently a lot of post about no sleep slash bad sleeping habits.

Wow lots of roommate issues... can't wait 'til this lease ends.... no more of those posts.

I wish people would say their names on my answering machine apparently I know like 50 million me's!

I had totally forgotten about this:
I met a lady who had gone to private school and actually cared about non-individualism and was for anti-capitalism. She was totally for the giant reset button of my dreams.

Nicely said:
http://firebushbass.blogspot.com/2004/12/where-i-come-from.html

reoccuring theme?
I also have this weird urge to play in an angry punk band or just beat the living crap out of some random person.... damn upbringing.

How many times in my past has this thought gone through my head?
*shrug* She wants me to just say that everything is okay and we are going out again, but that's not ever going to happen

Uplifting or so I thought:
http://firebushbass.blogspot.com/2004/12/musicless-ride-home.html

Gas Station Wisdom at its finest:
Isn't it fun to be continually tipsy at work?

this was fun:
I much enjoyed my away message today:
Lest ye forget:
1. I don't care.
2. I'm over it.
3. I don't care.
4. We will all die.
5. I don't care.
6. You'll do better than me.
7. I don't care.
8. You hate me.
9. I don't care.
10. You're better looking than me.
11. I don't care.
12. You're a "better" person than me.
13. I don't care.


Ah the times with the random songs heard on the radio.

The random thought of the night was:
Captalism promotes competion
Competition promotes rivalry
Rivalry promotes hatred
Hatred promotes violence
Violence promotes war
War promotes destruction
Destruction promotes annihilation
Annihilation promotes death
Death promotes THE END.

Therefore:

Captalism is the end of our civilization!

well that's into the end of Jan last year... more later maybe off to office and such

In honor of post #500

Do you know?

The Killing Time

oh wait I mean I'm killing tim...er TIME killing TIME......

Got through the change on the Yellow/Green Curriculums and printed out the new ones in the WPS format since this comp doesn't have Word I had to redo them all, fixed up the Kata sheets, and I hope I got all the mistakes that were on them all.

Uploaded the new Currics to the site, but got annoyed/bored and didn't do the kata ones.

Fine din of Peanut Butter, and Cream of Wheat...

Realized that I have a Union Meeting tonight about 8:30/9:00.... yay!

Uh oh Uh oh Uh oh I'm gonna....

hehe Crazy in Love cover... smile to my face does it bring.

Relived some earlier times when the random Sex Pistols song Liar came up on the playlist... quite a long list mind you...

Found out AOL doesn't like angelfire b/c of that in my email to parentals or perhaps the blogspot the main filtery thingy blocked all emails to those parents with AOL.

Gots to go to the office and drop off me papers for the ladies at the office to hopefully get me copies by Thursday... hmm I should decide how many I need... that would be wise.

Also I snagged the last of the tax write offs from the wagon, and should get that taken care of as well....

hmm I wonder if I'll beat the new poverty line this year... stupid gov't raised it... although it's true I am kind of there...

had to jump to a quick song!

WHO SUCKED OUT THE FEELING!!!! I ask you who sucked out the feeling?

*rocking, bopping in the room of bed*

DONE

ALL opening nights are now done with paperwork and times called into the office... wow all the classes kind of got rearranged from what I thought they would be, except I suppose Lawrence.

T-town went from G-45min and B and up-45min to just G and Up-1hr with a Sparring class-30min afterwards

St. J went from w-45 and w/y-45 to just w/y-45 with sparring and make up w/y-45 then G-45 and B&^-45

Lawrence Wednesday was W-45, W/Y-45, and G&^-1hr., Fridays Spar-30(45), B&^-1.5hrs, Kata-30

Hopefully I get a lot more this week in St. Joe.

I hope Kick-A-Thon is awesome this semester. Like Super Awesome, I hope they raise enough money to get a parent to break a cinderblock on my chest, or so many boards/bricks that I can't break them, as that would be ultra chill... mainly I hope my advanced students don't slack like usual. Last year they raised $0 for KAT... i yi yi.

Have to go to the office in the morning... sold twice as many uniforms last night as I did thursday but then again I had about 34 new students tonight, and only 10 Thurs.

I am thinking about revamping my curriculum, apparently for sure the Yellow Belt one I was given was wrong and I need Roundhouse Knee Kick instead of Step Behind Side Kick, So I'll probably just swap those two kicks. Almost out of the old business cards, so as soon as they go I'll switch to the new ones with the fancy. I am also contemplating adding in the 5 animal 5 element Kung Fu kata into the curriculum..... but mainly I need to get up and get the lesson plans and those curriculums done so I can get them printed and such.

Songs on the way home

Nada Surf - Always Love Lyrics



To make a mountain of your life
Is just a choice
But I never learned enough
to listen to the voice that told me
Always love…hate will get you every time
Always love…Don’t wait till the finish line

Slow demands come 'round
Squeeze the air and keep the rest out
It helps to write it down
Even when you then cross it out

Always Love…hate will get you every time
Always Love…even when you ought to fight

Self-directed lives
I want to know what it’d be like to
Aim so high above
Every card that has been dealt, you...

Always Love…hate will get you every time
Always Love…hate will get you…

I've been held back by something
Yeah. You said to me quietly on the stairs.
I've been held back by something
Yeah. You said to me quietly on the stairs.
You said…
Hey, you could once.
Hey, you could once.

To make a mountain of your life
Is just a choice
But I never learned enough
To listen to the voice that told me
Always love…hate will get you every time
Always love…hate will get you…

I've been held back by something
Yeah. You said to me quietly on the stairs.
I've been held back by something
Yeah. You said to me quietly on the stairs
You said
Hey, you could once
Hey, you could once
Hey, you could once
I…







WILLIE NELSON lyrics - "Always On My Mind"


Maybe I didn't love you
Quite as often as I could have
And maybe I didn't treat you
Quite as good as I should have
If I made you feel second best
Girl I'm sorry I was blind

You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

And maybe I didn't hold you
All those lonely, lonely times
And I guess I never told you
I'm so happy that you're mine
Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time

But you were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

Tell me
tell me that your sweet love hasn't died
And give me
Give me one more chance
To keep you satisfied
I'll keep you satisfied

[Instrumental Interlude]

Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time

But you were always on my mind
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind

No Es Bueno

not that I speak spanish, but shorter hours at work are still not helping me I am super tired all day and all night, I actually fell asleep under my car while working on it yesterday.... at 3pm.

Who?

Me that that's who's got a new a insurance company and lower rate!!!!!

*kookie dance*

Already?

I already got my business cards that I wasn't expecting for another two weeks!!!

Woo WHO!

also One of my W-2's now just need the rest..... oddly enough the Zarco one.

Good times at the T office today. Got to go pee in a cup as the random UA of the month. alrighty. Jym always makes me smile, and we went through the Lost and Found to implement his new system of classification. Plus it was a short day for me and thus not so much to do. Hung out with Joe for a bit, but he had already eaten therefore we ran around to the Merc and such then I went to Bucky's after I dropped him off.

So glad I had students bring friends to Wednesday. Had one BRING 5 that's going to be $25 and 5 BAF patches plus one Belt patch... if only she brought one more she would get two belt patches.

Alex is enjoying kickin' it next the heater in my room apparently. She is quite chill for me.

Old lyrics found

The State of my Mind
is not the state of the nation
the way this country runs
is based on oppression

Democracy is a joke
there should be no such
thing as a career politician

After one term they get paid for life
if they serve in our national assemblies
they lose sight of all
constituants wills and
cater to those with the desire
and funds to control

Equal rights will never
happen as long as we
wallow in our capitalism

Greed and envy
corrupt the goal
take away your desires
and work for the whole

All it takes is to be nice
share what you have and
care for a stranger

Life ends just as easy
as it begins
learn not to hate
the little does not matter
forgive or forget
move on to happiness
sticking with the pain
is but madness

Bred are we to believe
that our government cares
learn do we
it's only the few

Rise up and fight your oppressor
one by one we must join in
they strike down the leaders
we must not deny this

Value all life
not just your own
soon you will see
what it is to be grown.

I wrote that sometime last summer... the summer of 04 that is.... At any rate whence I worked at Wendy's since it's on Wendy's paper.

Sad Numbers

Less students at Munchenburger than Lawrence Wednesdays..... freakin whomps. Apparently no advertising for class this semester.... only 10 new students... ouch.

Long night ahead

66 in Lawrence

Should be almost double if not more in St. Joseph tonight....

Hope to not run long.... and hopefully no wavemaster at the office... or I suppose hopefully so.

Tired

Well settling in for the long night of typing in each and every reg. form.

Speaking of Polka Dots....

They haven't migrated in awhile. Sticking to that arm for now....


I got all the St. Joe kids called, thankfully I didn't have to talk to but half of them, the rest I could leave messages. Now I just need to get ahold of the 3 Topeka kids.

Who's doing alright?

I'm doing alright.... awww yeah... thanx to sis for the dark rum.

Talk to my bro for like an hour and a half, always good to talk to him.

He gets lifted from talking to me almost as much as I do from talking with him.

Unfortunately, I'm not going to Germany, but perhaps AZ or even Japan.

Good times David and Jessie are going to make it Wednesday, and I still need to call up my Thursday Students and monday ones as well unfortunately..

Slept a little too long

So I went back to sleep, and then didn't get out to the recycling center before work, and it was closed afterwards. Oh well there's always death, oh wait tomorrow....

A random shade of brown

We are all just a random shade of brown. It's all about melanin.

I've got all my tax stuff together except whatever is in the wagon... Now I just need all 4? of my W-2's... Let's see there's about two weeks at the Gas Station, Then there's the Bus, then YCOA, and about 5-6 months of ShepCo. I don't think I worked any where else last year.....

Taking the bus in bright and early at 8 tomorrow. Before I go to work today I plan on taking in some aluminum.

Hours Cut Back

Well tomorrow I start not getting to go to work until 10 b/c of slow business. Hopefully the Recycling place will be open and I can take in the bus to them. If not it will have to wait until tuesday. Going to take in my aluminium cans too, get from them as much as I can. Sufficed to say money is TITE. I was thinking of getting a hitch on the 'balt tonight that way I have a place for my karate things that I can just hook up to. Which seeing as I have to pick up a wavemaster sometime soon it would be a very good idea.

Billy Madison

What a freakin' strange arse movie..............

sense make not the random musical number does.

or the rest of it.

Did have an interesting day at the bus, had to kick a drunkard off, almost got a REAL good night, then kids jumping seats had to stop the bus, and lastly noisy Collegiates that I had to tell to quiet down. Oh and the guys talking loudly about killing someone with a knife or machete, they were my last ride by themselves.

2 things

First a response, if nothing phases me then there is rarely emotional outputs.




Secondly

ISN'T SHE SO CUTE!?!?!?!?!


Alex is her name


Being my roommates rat is her game


In the hallway she frequently is, for chew on the bars she does.

Are you scared?

what can't you say to someone's face but only behind? This is truly fear. If you cannot honestly those around you how you feel then those feelings are quite worthless, are they not?

Too Much

waaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyy too much Ben Fold's on the random playlist generated by the pc.... woo.

Got skip on dat.

Had a TGUK CD listening on the ride home...

Tired old man

.... So tired....

Capitalism whomps.

it makes me thinking constantly of a giant reset button to wipe out humanity.

Taproom woes

Well taproom technically was good.

Sold a bass elec/acou for a mere 200 bones today to Richard's

Now I'll probably have to sell an amp as well..

Found out the bus needs a whole new motor.... $3500 or more....


ouchies.

SWEET

New Episode of the Shield was friggin awesome.

'nuff said.

My Brainwashing was better than your brainwashing

Children's Home Rules:

1) Children shall greet their parents when they enter the house and tell them goodbye when they leave.
2) Children will at all times be respectful to parents and grandparents, and strive for a good relationship with brothers and sisters.
3) Children will willingly help with household chores and be responsible for the upkeep and neatness of their rooms.
4) Children shall abide by their parents decisions.
5) Children shall not interrupt adult conversations.
6) Children will study their schoolwork both at school and at home.
7) Children will practice daily cleanliness in the matter of hair, teeth, and body.
8) Children shall possess an active mind, body, and spirit.
9) Children should never lie and should always be truthful.
10) Children should always finish what they already started.


The Tenets of TKD:

Courtesy: Applies to showing respect to the Master, the Instructors, the senior ranks, but also too it applies to treating each other, regardless of rank or age, with respect.

Integrity: Is much like honesty or uprightness. It is having sound moral values in life.

Perseverance: Is to keep trying and not give up until you have reached your goals even though it may be difficult.

Self-Control: Is control of oneself or control of ones emotions or actions.

Indomitable Spirit: Is an unconquerable spirit; no matter how tough the challenges you do not give up.



Student Pledge:

1. I shall observe the tenets of Tae Kwon Do.
2. I shall respect instructors and seniors.
3. I shall never misuse Tae Kwon Do.
4. I will be a champion of Freedom and Justice.
5. I will build a more peaceful world.



Tae Kwon Do is a never ending quest for perfection. An art of developing the mind and the body to defeat your constant opponent.... Yourself!


A good student is one who takes it upon himself/herself to learn the do of Tae Kwon Do. Out of respect for the art, he/she should learn some of the language.

Tae: To Kick
Kwon: Use of a hand or fist to block, punch, or strike.
Do: The art or the way.

Tae Kwon Do: The art of kicking, blocking, punching, or striking.


El Sim means on heart, one mind, one spirit, on love. We must practice El Sim to live from our original heart. All of us have one heart, but unfortunately we are cursed with a sinful nature. When we live with our sinful nature, we live an ever changing life.
We need to develop the positive concepts of El Sim, then we will realize how to live better with happiness and the true way of life. In conclusion, if we do not know ourselves, what we want, or who we are, we are unable to share our lives to help others.


Remember the following list in everyday life, in order to become a great Martial Artist.

Discipline your mind and body, train your body and mind.
Concentrate only on Tae Kwon Do.
Winning in only one Strike.
One must have a clean mind.
The more you know the less you talk or do not talk at all.
Do One Good thing each day.
Respect, love, and honor the elder and younger.


Ultimately then, Taekwondo in the form of education, sport, or human personification (or "do") seeks a practical philosophy based on martial morality which gives man a way to think and act with propriety recofnized as an intrepid, altruistic human being.


Our patch is lined with bamboo for flexibility. Bamboo is strong and bends with the wind but still stands in the storm.
The Tiger is white, rare, and symbolizes purity. The tiger has one yellow eye which sybolizes our logo "eye of the tiger."
The stripes in the patch represent our ranking system and show each belt level up to black belt.
The pyramid is equal on all three sides. The base of the pyramid is "Power" and the two sides are "Unity" and "Growth."
The Korean letters say "Tae Kwon Do"



and lastly Black Belt Commandments:

Truth-As a black belt, I will remain loyal to the art while striving to be the best example I can to those around me.
Perfection-I will seek to continue learning in TaeKwon Do, striving for self-mastery, for my journey into TaeKwon Do is never complete.
Commitment-I will at all times respect my Master, my instructors, all studnets and our dojang.
Courage-I will never misuse the skills I have been taught.
Wisdom-I will not depend upon others to motivate me in my growth in Tae Kown Do for I realize that much learning comes by the path of self motivation.
Guidance-I will seek to understand that each student in Tae Kwon Do is an individual with individual strengths and weaknesses, and will try not to judge others unfairly. I will be responsible for my classes and set a positive learning atomosphere.
Modesty-I will practice humility when speaking of my own abilities.
Simplicity-I will believe in the integrity of the Black Belt and will not dishonor it by yielding to my own weaknesses.
Cleanliness-I will show my respect for our dojang by helping to keep it clean and by helping our students to realize that the dojang is a place of learning and not a recreation center.
Love-My promises are the principles of Tae Kwon Do. Now that they have been learned, it is time to repay Tae Kwon Do, Master Melanie, and our school, and to share the art that has been so freely shared with me.

Notes of interest in my kata book:

The good martial artist maintains proper balance in motion and in stillness.
The martial arts is not about who you can hurt, it is about who you can help. It is about life, friendship and love....
The kata performance of a person advanced in karate is powerful, rhythmical, and consequently, beautiful.
A good form will take a minimum of 6 months to perfect.
As soon as you think you have perfected a form, you have proved you have not.

Sensei Necklace

A student gave me this necklace tonight that says SenSei on it... Amazingly it fits.

Good night, parents were superbly well at staying quiet, students did okay for only having one hour to prepare.

good vietnamese food

We went to a nice Vietnamese restaurant/cafe on Rainbow BLVD in KC, or whatever, tonight for dinner. Very nice. Good feel inside do I.

Saturday

Well to begin with the bus broke down in KC-ish, 435 and 87th. walked back to the Mc E D's, no phonebook, then to the kwik shop to call a cab by 7:35 finally got one for 10 minutes, 40 minutes later I started walking the two plus miles to Midland Dr. and the instructors meeting. Luckily someone gave me a ride home.

Had the bus towed back to town.

300 plus

went to my mom's b-day (30th time turning 21) and left before her, my dad, one of my other mom's, and some friends did, but that is the way it goes. Me being an old man and all.

bleachy

wow my eyes are blood, with iris, and pupil. I think I was around the bleach a little much...

whose bathroom is the cleanest?

Well that'd be mine!

Couldn't sleep so cleaned up a storm

I think I might be all out of elbow grease though.

Sink, Mirror, Toilet, Shower, and a bit o' de floor.

worked on cleaning out the corner in the dining room, got many a thing sorted through.

Cleaned a good chunk of the room.

Did some more Karate paperwork things.

very productive night.

a little rollins

8/12/98 (lyrics by Henry Rollins, from 'Weight' by Rollins Band, 1994)

Liar

You think you're going to live your life alone In darkness and seclusion Yeah, I know You've been out there and tried to mix with those animals But it just left you full of humiliated confusion

So you stagger back to your room And wait, for nothing But the solitary refinement of your room Spits you back out onto the street And now you're desperate, and in need of human contact

Then ... you meet me And your whole world changes Because everything I say Is everything you've ever wanted to hear So you drop all your defenses and you drop all your fears And you trust me completely I'm perfect, in every way

I make you feel so powerful inside You feel so lucky But your ego obscures reality And you never bother to wonder Why things are going so well

You want to know why?

Because I'm a liar. Yeah, I'm a liar I'll tear your mind up, and I'll burn your soul I'll turn you into me, I'll turn you into me Because I'm a liar, a liar A liar, a liar

I'll hide behind a smile, and understanding eyes And I'll tell you things that you already know So you can say, "I really identify with you, so much." And all the time that you're needing me Is just the time that I'm bleeding you Don't you get it yet? I'll come to you like an affliction But I'll leave you like an addiction You'll never forget me

You want to know why?

Because I'm a liar. Yeah, I'm a liar I'll rip your mind out, and I'll burn your soul I'll turn you into me, I'll turn you into me Because I'm a liar, a liar Liar, Liar, Liar, Liar

I don't know why I feel the need to lie And cause you so much pain Maybe its something inside Maybe it's something I can't explain Because all I do, is mess you up and lie to you I'm a liar. Oh, I am a liar

But if you give me just one more chance I swear, I won't ever lie to you again Because now I see the destructive power of a lie They're stronger than truth I can't believe I ever hurt you I swear, I will never lie to you again Please, just give me one more chance I will never lie to you again I swear I will never tell a lie I will never tell a lie

Hah Hah Hah Hah Hah! Ho Ho Ho Ho! Sucker, sucker! Oh, sucker! I am a liar, yeah! I am a liar, yeah! I like it! I feel good! Oh, I am a liar! Yeah, I lie, I lie, I lie! Oh, I lie, I lie, yeah! Oh, I'm a liar! I lie, yeah! I like it! I feel good! And I'll lie again and again! And I'll keep on lying ... I promise.

Take a boy out of the country....

I think it's true for wherever you grow up. That surrounding is what you are comfortable in. You have usually fond memories there, and occassionally you should return to those areas.

I saw another field in Olathe get leveled for the newest Urbanization project. So, seeing as I had some free time, I went to where I used to live, left one mile, right one mile, left one mile, right one mile, first driveway on the left.... a little different now, a road or two now paved, albeit not so well, a new house here and there, but mostly still the same. One set of old neighbors was not home, I saw their old Rott, Chelsea, and had good memories with her, and apparently their new dogs like me as well. Stopped by another neighbors who's kid I had seen here in town awhile back, met him as I was pulling out of his driveway and he in. Since we were both in cars, it was a quick reminicing, and moderate jibber jabber. Another one was not there, but that was not as important I suppose... Just a casual hello.

Then a nice drive up to S T J, through a back way...

I've gone by Taos and Reno today, granted Missouri and Kansas, respectively.

Took a different way home as well.

Man I need to figure out how to get my green belts to behave more in St. Joe, and upper belts as well. The one I am getting close to sending to Brown belt testing is doing a great job, she comes and helps out in other classes, recently earning her Assitant Instructor Merit Badge.

Our end night demo is good to go. White's with their usual everything seeing as parents are super exicited on their students first graduation. Yellow basically the same, but seeing as there are fewer it should go faster. Green's doing a medley, with a Fan Skit in the mix, some sparring demos, kata, and One Steps. Blue and Above, I have one doing a sword skit with me.. him killing me *figuratively obviously* Two doing Sparring, Three doing kata *different ones*, and three doing a short skit with Flying Side Kicks, and throws at the end. Seeing as there are 3 of them one gets to throw me, then the other two throw each other. I so enjoy having a mat.

Everyday I just want to get on the road and not stop. Just keep going. I feel like a coward everytime I come back to responsibility.

I had an unusual compliment today at the office, I said thank you... and the secretary was suprised... apparently I am one of few that do so. *shrug*

However, it did make me think. Tonight on LoveLine Dr. Drew was talking about how growing up persons tend to ridiculously go for what has tramatized them. E.G. abused go for abusive persons, or become them. I wanted to call in and say well I have yet to hear a compliment from my father in my entire lifetime that didn't end with but... do better... do it differently... or even I would have done it. Yet somehow I manage to now politely smile, although not really accept internally a compliment, and frequently dish them out. I will accept them, just not the full credit to myself that some persons assertively suggest that I should deserve.

Eh well one of these days I hopefully won't snap from being in what cultural feels wrong, killing at least double digits worth of people, and instead just leave it all behind, never to return.

So little to do so much time..

Wait reverse that, gots to teach tonight.

long night it shall be.

Forced Food

Well they forced me to take a lunch today at work, because they aren't doing SUPER AWESOME, I found out I didn't get the o/n job I applied for b/c they needed me thursdays... So now I'll need to find one.

Cleaned up the kitchen and took out trash over lunch, was going to go sell a guitar, but Brittany roped me into some long conversation..... which generally happens.

Entmagnetisieren

DEGAUSS RULES!!!!!!!!!!

even in german!

Good slow times at the Tap Room this evening.

Seth was Bartending, Ryan working the door.

no league.

mellow

pitcher

history channel

random peeps and pool

Nick's old roomy was there.

Took awhile to figure out who she was... then the hitting on memories... whoops didn't know she had a man back then, but her man is chill. I've met him before and there tonight he was.

Meeks and I completed some more Gauntlet levels tonight, getting those rune stones.. one level took about 1.5 hours the next thankfully only .75 man they gets complicated....

Decisions

Aren't they fun!?!

I definately need mo money, as I will only be able to pay minimum payments for awhile. Hopefully all my tax shizzel gets in soon, and I get a nice refund to pay off some bills. Until then however, it's bills or food... bills or food....

Shin splint pains came today.... well I get to deal with those for awhile now... Classes start back up thursday HOORAY!!!!!! another much needed paycheck shall be returning, as my last one was a mere 260... 40 short of what I needed...

Guess I'll make a trip to Richard's to see if I can't sell some gear...

*growl*

Free Car Wash

Ian washed the car since I gave him a full tank o' gas whence he went to Joplin to visit his friends and all..

Stupid money requirements for rent and such

Hopefully tomorrow I get my YCOA check and it's at least 300.. had to take out a micro loan to be able to pay all me bills on time, since meeks has no money either.

*stretch*

Good sane night, as my Uncle Art would say. Asleep early, but apparently I forgot to set my alarm and then was late to breakfast by about an hour... so we had a late breakfast. Ian's got the 'balt, and I'm driving somebody's Blue Sunbird. It needs a CV axle bad!