Take a boy out of the country....

I think it's true for wherever you grow up. That surrounding is what you are comfortable in. You have usually fond memories there, and occassionally you should return to those areas.

I saw another field in Olathe get leveled for the newest Urbanization project. So, seeing as I had some free time, I went to where I used to live, left one mile, right one mile, left one mile, right one mile, first driveway on the left.... a little different now, a road or two now paved, albeit not so well, a new house here and there, but mostly still the same. One set of old neighbors was not home, I saw their old Rott, Chelsea, and had good memories with her, and apparently their new dogs like me as well. Stopped by another neighbors who's kid I had seen here in town awhile back, met him as I was pulling out of his driveway and he in. Since we were both in cars, it was a quick reminicing, and moderate jibber jabber. Another one was not there, but that was not as important I suppose... Just a casual hello.

Then a nice drive up to S T J, through a back way...

I've gone by Taos and Reno today, granted Missouri and Kansas, respectively.

Took a different way home as well.

Man I need to figure out how to get my green belts to behave more in St. Joe, and upper belts as well. The one I am getting close to sending to Brown belt testing is doing a great job, she comes and helps out in other classes, recently earning her Assitant Instructor Merit Badge.

Our end night demo is good to go. White's with their usual everything seeing as parents are super exicited on their students first graduation. Yellow basically the same, but seeing as there are fewer it should go faster. Green's doing a medley, with a Fan Skit in the mix, some sparring demos, kata, and One Steps. Blue and Above, I have one doing a sword skit with me.. him killing me *figuratively obviously* Two doing Sparring, Three doing kata *different ones*, and three doing a short skit with Flying Side Kicks, and throws at the end. Seeing as there are 3 of them one gets to throw me, then the other two throw each other. I so enjoy having a mat.

Everyday I just want to get on the road and not stop. Just keep going. I feel like a coward everytime I come back to responsibility.

I had an unusual compliment today at the office, I said thank you... and the secretary was suprised... apparently I am one of few that do so. *shrug*

However, it did make me think. Tonight on LoveLine Dr. Drew was talking about how growing up persons tend to ridiculously go for what has tramatized them. E.G. abused go for abusive persons, or become them. I wanted to call in and say well I have yet to hear a compliment from my father in my entire lifetime that didn't end with but... do better... do it differently... or even I would have done it. Yet somehow I manage to now politely smile, although not really accept internally a compliment, and frequently dish them out. I will accept them, just not the full credit to myself that some persons assertively suggest that I should deserve.

Eh well one of these days I hopefully won't snap from being in what cultural feels wrong, killing at least double digits worth of people, and instead just leave it all behind, never to return.