the names have been changed to protect the innocent... or not so innocent

Me: just had inspiration as I was near sleeping
her: Oh? Of what sort?
Me: song
her: mmm....nice.
her: I'd love to see/hear it whenever...
Me: working on it
her: ok...I'm so impressed by you...always
Me: *shakes head*
her: don't doubt me, crazy man!
Me: it's up, unless more hits me
her: what do you mean it's up?...on your blog?
Me: oh and somewhere Christopher is on myspace
Me: he told me the other day
her: any tips on how to find him?
her: what city is he in?
Me: *shrug*

Fort Scott, but not..... the Rez by there
her: how old is he?
Me: 3-
her: Arizona?
Me: yeppers
her: hmmm...
Me: hmm I am reminded of my high school english teacher
her: why's that?
Me: for the last time I uttered this was back then
Me: I write poetry in form of song
Me: and as thus
Me: think it should be a category
Me: of poetry that is
Me: requiring but a repeating chorus
her: I'm intrigued by what you wrote. I feel like I need to spend some time reading it repeatedly and pondering
her: I'm not finding a Fort Scott Arizona...
her: do you know his zip code?
Me: uh not off the top o my head
her: which rez is it?
Me: actually it's Fort Defiance
her: ok...
Me: Fort Scott is something Shae was talking about
her: right..in Kansas
Me: crazy jah mess
her: it happens
her: blame the flying
Me: or not
her: lol
Me: I finished the rough draft and put it up
Me: or at least added it to the other
her: I'll go look
Me: Here's one from way back:
Me: I have always known that you would leave me
for you are too young to know what love is.
Deep in my heart I care for you.
My soul still yearns for more
Even though that I knew
I still fell in love with you
Now I sit alone
merely a shell of a man
from the moment I first saw you
I could see
her: Oh honey...
Me: That deep inside was the woman for me
Sadly I also saw
that you were but growing
Growing up, giving in, becoming a woman
Now you know more than then
but you still need to grow
No more can I hold you back
You realized how great you are
and now you've gone
Me: That's the first in this lyrics book
her: wow
her: how long ago did you write that?
Me: *one eye closed*
*pen in mouth*
*looking upward*
Me: ummmm
Me: two .....
Me: I dunno honestly
her: ok
her: you're a good writer, you know
her: I can't seem to find Christopher, by the way
Me: *shrug*
Me: just thought I would give you the heads up
her: well, when you talk to him tell him I'd love it if he'd like to say hello sometime.
Me: my favorite lyric ever that I wrote:
Me: Driving through the rearview mirror
her: *grin* I like it.
Me: chorus:
her: what's that?
Me: looking not far enough ahead transfixed as we are by what we've done we are all just driving through the rearview mirror. The road behind was once ahead, remind yourself of this, temporary reflexion is healthy to learn to better futurely do, but if it's all you have, then nothing have you just driving through the rearview mirror
Me: .
Me: Intro I came up with is:
Me: We are just living our lives for corrections
planning not far enough ahead
always prepared to fix
never to do right
her: it's kind of sad, really...
Me: hmmm happy song.....
Me: *flipping through*
her: you don't have to find a happy song, baby
her: do you have one?
Me: well um random ramblings are in here too such as
Me: If fear were removed from religion and political campaigning would anything be left?
Me: Why can our country not impose power without fear
Me: ?
Me: If you are as old as you feel,
what happens when everyone else feels you are older?
Can you be older than you are?
Or only if everyone else feels so?
Me: ooo
Me: ooo
Me: I found one
her: hmmm....interesting...but I'd say that not all religion is dependent upon fear, though any good theology has to deal with it.
Me: Nice Guys?
her: huh?
Me: As I grew,
I learn of a lifestyle known as punk
A trio of men
from the town of Berkley
Made me grow to realize
that Nice Guys Finish Last
But what they failed to mention
was nice guys finish best.
her: I like it.
her: :-D
Me: here's stuff I overflowed with when I was in AZ
Me: I mean I required paper
Me: and pen
Me: and it just flowed
her: right
Me: If you want to blame society remember first that you are the original society and thus teacher of right and wrong to your children
Me: All racism comes from upbringing but to admit this is to know that we are all racists
her: I'd say yes to that, for the most part
Me: Only when we admit our problems can we begin to solve them
Me: Denial is taught both in our gov't and major religions
Me: Teach the future that giving is good and lying, cheating, stealing, and killing are the worst
her: hmmm.
Me: Teach that is always a choice
Me: whether or not you like your options there is a choice
her: sounds like a conversation I had with someone recently
Me: There is no longer a need to populate the world in fact we have more people than we can currently care for so why do ceratin cultures still insist on convincing their masses to replicate as much as possible
Me: have only 1 child that you can care for and then use that which we must all exert as humans self-control
Me: Our society promotes excess and sex and power teach their wrongs and explain the spiritual joys of control and respect both self and from peers
Me: If you can be brother to those who aren't biologically then be a father to those who aren't your kin
Me: Be a friend and teacher to those who need it but more importantly never stop being a student
her: is sex in and of itself really a wrong, or particularly when paired with excess and power?
Me: sex v. love
Me: then I had a cover idea
Me: BROTHERHOOD
her: ok
Me: with a multitude of hands
Me: of all colours
Me: a row of open
Me: and then below a row of closed
her: you left out over half the population in that
Me: four corner sayings:
Open Hands
Community
Solidarity
Closed Fists
her: hmm.
Me: UMA
united minority alliance
Me: steeping in cultural history minorities united are more than the majority
her: I think that's great, baby...but don't forget that the 'brother'hood language runs the risk of overlooking the twin oppression of sexism.
her: language is incredibly important
Me: If everyone stops (Folbwing)*can't read that so well
Me: then change must come
Me: learn from unions
Me: with solidarity anything can be accomplished
Me: shed the current idea that you can't
Me: strong communities churn out strong leaders and good people
Me: rid yourselves of the ideas that money gets you all you desire
her: I've read some good work on solidarity lately
Me: Teach your youths to learn before you send them out to eventually know only hate
her: so what are you going to do with all these ideas? it seems like there are some themes here that might do well with some working out
her: expanding, really.
her: so what are you going to do with all these ideas? it seems like there are some themes here that might do well with some working out
Me: 8-)
her: I love the way your mind works

All but Lost

here is the lyrical inspirations of the sleep time:


All But Lost:

I always feel old anymore
I know I am young
yet old I feel
I seem to have lost my grip
and time just slips and fads
far away from me
days, nights, weeks, months, hours, years
they have all but lost meaning
their passage serves to mark only when
to move to the next thing
Escapism thoughts creep into my mind
nearly every moment my brain isn't busy

-
Escape to the place w/o time
A place that is all but lost
All but lost to the modern world
can I find it, or is it too late for me?
-

The stress of this life is unnecessary
but life is (important to live)
surroundings of granduer
creating emptiness inside
propagating desires of material and wealth
losing sight of hope and love
can this last 'til the end
or am I at mine?

-
chorus
-

*added more*

-bridge-

The contemplated thoughts
to do what should be done
seem to go unused
false tethers keep me
unable to be
can I ever get free?
or will merely here I be?

-end bridge-

-
chorus
-

The someday may not be
the today is
tomorrow is uncertain
finite is our time
how it's used is a choice for each to make
be satisfied or you are not a being
failure is not what it appears


hope



-
chorus fading >
-

Best original song I've heard in awhile

Griffin House - The Way I Was Made:


I was born, and I was made by the hands of marmalade
I've got legends in my blood; I've got Indians in my veins
And in the year of '44 Grandpaw went away to war
He went to Hitler's house and kicked in the door
There began the way I was made

And in the year of '47 that Rewey girl came down from heaven
In '48 a bride and groom in love on their honeymoon
And they weren't doin' nothin' wrong, but it's how my mother came along
And here I am with words and song singin' 'bout the way I was made

Whoa oh! It feels so good to have your blood in my veins
Whoa oh! It feels so good to have your blood in my veins

My dad, he was a country kid. He loved to smoke and hunt and fish
Mom, she was a city babe, a pretty little girl who never ate
They met at school with broken hearts and healed each-other from the start
Man and woman play your part, now we're closer to the way I was made

Whoa oh! It feels so good to have your blood in my veins
Whoa oh! It feels so good to have your blood in my veins

Legend says our family tree grows black and white and Indian leaves
And if the history books are right, none of us are really white
In fact, I think that means, that everybody's blood is just the same

Whoa oh! It feels so good to have your blood in my veins

Whoa oh! It feels so good to have your blood in my veins

Chicago

So apparently I am on the TSA watch list and cannot fly without personally talking to people and answering extra questions that the kiosks can't do... mm good times

Saw Griffin House and Rhett Miller... good times


Not as good as time with the g/f though... glad she loves me

Went to a party and saw a mutual friend, but boy was she tore up... been awhile since I saw her like that.

Class today good, found out about an open sparring thing in Tongy that we might go to just for fun... 8-)

still wondering why one of my bosses called me though.... hmmmm....

Skeleton Jar

Strange video watching am I right now doing paperwork, packing, and class history update before heading to work then to Chicago to see me g/f... busy is the James... smile Tyler... The James, b/c according to him he couldn't put The F'ing James on my name tag... according to me b/c he couldn't put the biatch on there....

tiredness

So I am getting the idea that I am getting more and more tired from not just a lack of sleep but from my lack of nurishment yet again... stupid body requiring food... and stupid food asking for money I don't have.

Trigun!!!!!!!

Full series in the mail today YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

unfortunately Miriam and Brittany are talking about Miriam's breakup in the other room and I cannot watch it as they are also watching Queer as Folk on DVD.... *tear*

Lyte as a Rock

Metaphor or Simile?






Methaphor-a figure of speech in which a word or phrase literally denoting one kind of object or idea is used in place of another to suggest a likeness or analogy between them




Simile-a figure of speech comparing two unlike things



The key is though that a simile usually encompasses the word like or as.....


I am the Lyte a-a-a-a-a-a-as-as-a-rock L-Y, L-L-Y-T-E
(repeat 3X)
[Milk]
Do you understand the metaphoric phrase 'Lyte as a Rock?'
It's explaining, how heavy the young lady is
You know what I'm saying King?
[King of Chill]
Yes my brother, but I would consider 'Lyte as a Rock'
a simile because of the usage of the word 'as'
And now.. directly from the planet of Brooklyn
MC Lyte -- as a Rock!
[MC Lyte]
Must I say it again, I said it before
Move out the way when I'm comin through the door
Me, heavy? As Lyte as a Rock
Guys watch, even some of girls clock
Step back, it ain't that type of party
No reply if you ain't somebody
Get out my face, don't wanna hear no more
If you hate rejection, don't try to score
First base? You ain't got what it takes
You smile, you wink, you big fake flake
You're so pathetic you make my stomach turn
You beg, you borrow, now you have to learn
I am the Lyte a-a-a-a-a-a-as-as-a-rock L-Y, L-L-Y-T-E
(repeat 2X)
[MC Lyte]
Lyte as a Rock, or I should say a boulder
Rolling down your neck, pounding on your shoulders
Never shall I be an emcee, called a wannabe
I am the Lyte, L-Y-T-E
This is the way it is, don't ever forget
Hear the rhyme by someone else and you know they bit
All in the way, just little obstacles
Chew em up, spit em out, just like popsicles
Suckers out of my way, we're not on the same wavelength
I show stability, potential and strength
On the other hand, you are weak and unruly
Could never be a spy, cause you're just a plain stoolie
I am the Lyte a-a-a-a-a-a-as-as-a-rock L-Y, L-L-Y-T-E
(repeat 2X)
[MC Lyte]
I'm a slave, I'm a slave, I'm a slave to the rhythm
Def rhymes on the micraphone is what I'm givin
Yes I am a Rock and you are just a pebble
Milk turn up the base, and Rock adjust the levels
If a rap can paint a thousand words then I can paint a million
Wait, Lyte is capable of paintin a bazillion raps
So when I say it, this is what I mean
Audio Two an alliance on the scene
and I'd like to say whassup to my producer King of Chill
Party people are you ready, jam if you will
Never underestimate Lyte the Emcee; I am a rapper who is here
to make the things the way they're meant to be
The World Ultimate, I'm here to take the title
but I had a little trouble upon, my arrival
But I got rid of those who, tried to rock me
Lyte is here, no one can stop me
I am the Lyte a-a-a-a-a-a-as-as-a-rock L-Y, L-L-Y-T-E
(repeat 2X)
[MC Lyte]
There are Hip-Hop leaders, this you know
We also have, hip-hoppers that follow
By the tone of my voice, you can tell I am a scholar
I'm also the leader of the hip-hop followers
Now get this, I'm at a jam and I'm rockin it
Suckers like a checkerboard, when black is clockin it
The grace as I ease across the stage
Bars around the audience, sort of like a cage
They laugh, cause they assume I'm in prison
but in reality, they're locked in
Once again I'll state that I can't be stopped
cause yo, I am as Lyte, as, Rock!
I am the Lyte a-a-a-a-a-a-as-as-a-rock L-Y, L-L-Y-T-E
(repeat 6X)
I am the Lyte a-a-a-a-a-a-as-as-a-rock L-Y, L-L-Y-T-E
(repeat 4X)
I am the Lyte a-a-a-a-a-a-as-as-a-rock L-Y, L-L-Y-T-E
(repeat 4X to fade)

happy fun no sleep time

mmmm needed energy to get up this morn, to drive this afternoon, to teach class this eve, and to drive home... way to freaking busy am I.

observation

if gas prices have gone up soooo much for everyone, and delivery drivers are charging surcharges to everyone, and prices of materials now incorporate the price of fuel, why hasn't our price of stamps gone up? Every time they want a raise in budget; the price rises, but now when everyone else wants, nay needs, more money for their services the price on stamps remains the same.... Strange I say.

*yawn*

tiredness... to sleep then..

Nov 6th

The Boondocks, aka the greatest comic strip ever, is going to be anime! BE DERE BIZNITCHES!

8-)

so yeah good day really nothing else important to say... good day... tired time now.

Dearborn, MO to Lawrence, KS

So my old "next door" neighbor from Dearborn, MO Jason Jeffers came in for a tire repair today, and I ended up being able to give him a sweet deal with getting a great used tire for $10 total cost to him. So quite the small world, seeing as I haven't seen him for over 6 years and now he lives just a few blocks... okay maybe a mile, but in country terms still "next door" groovy groovy.

refreshing

mmm a little blast of the irish punk was just what I needed tonight... mmmm... then cartoons!!!!!! yay!

Khaos

mmm Monster Khaos is orange soda + Energy Drink THAT IS FARGIN AWESOME
I need a freakin' spicket like a fountain...


I think I am the only human who doesn't care for the sex.... yep pretty much... thinking that's how it is...

Stupid society and it's complete and utter lack of moral fortitude...

ow

so sore

I am going to enjoy sleeping at home instead of at the house with the kids... ahhh no CATS attacking doors... no peeps moving around in the middle of the night... mmmm

Timing

It's all about timing, you can give someone nothing, but always leave them wanting. If you always offer it as they have to leave. Not that I do it on purpose you know, just that you could.... 8-)

starting tiredness times

Babysitting with Jen, had to get a babysitter for a little bit tonight though... random and tired times...

*GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR*

Secretary Handed out a fan to someone for their raffle packet when it was not for their raffle packet, after I already told them since they didn't get it signed in and put it in the back of my box I didn't turn it in, and the freaking thing was still in my box!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Then she didn't, obviously, give it to the person I told her to give it to, not once, but 3 times.....


mmmmmmmm now all my money is messed up and my inventory too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anger level RISING!

Phases and Timing

Life, love, and desire are all a matter of phases and timing.... phases and timing...

mmm Germany... desire...
Increasing knowledge... phase of life... and desire...

Why must we be constricted by coporeal and monetary means?

N.D.E.

So I had a NDE today found a freakin piece of glass in my tub o' food my g/f cooked for me.... a big piece!!!! like 2 inches long... good thing I saw it before I just was eating w/o looking.

So bloody tired, finished the B'ment room for Deanna so they can start doing ceiling except I apparently am doing it whilst she is gone.

Work was longer than normal and brutal today.

I missed Nick and Megan at the Tap Room, as I went to support Aeolian, but alas in the 20-30 minutes I was there I didn't see Bill and that's when they left... *shrug* they got me money.... The bands that is....

Took Jen's friend, Alex, some of the food Jen cooked for me, b/c she said she had no food, and apparently she is basically fired from CLO.... Job hunting blows....

Ah the good feelings inside

Here is an email I received... mmmm good feelings all around... however it did take her 'til a party....


was bored at work today looking at a couple of your blogs from when we
first started talking, and I was remembering that week when I was stuck in
KC w/ the bro and you kept me company online. I could feel myself flirting
with you, occasionally even overtly... Even so, I wasn't sure as it was
happening what exactly I wanted to happen with you. The whole thing kind of
took me by surprise, and I was leaving at the end of the summer after all.
(I certainly didn't feel like you were the kind of guy with whom I could
have a casual fling.) So, in short, I was a little conflicted.

Wo, when I got to the party at Nick's place that Friday night, I walked up
and found Magno chillin' on the porch, so I stood and talked to him for a
couple minutes. Then, I went in the house to stash my beer, with the honest
intention of finding him again to continue our conversation...but then I saw
you. From that moment on, there just wasn't a question about where I wanted
to be (um, right next to you, in case you hadn't figured it out yet), and as
our relationship has grown, there's never been a question for a moment
since.

I love you.




How sweet it is.. yes it is.... now for your horrible dose of poppy badness I hear on the buzz.... and annoys me stupid morning wood.... pop band... but the are at least a party pop band....

Morning Wood - To The Nth Degree...... blast that song

Double shot

So smitty has some memory holes from last night... hehehehe

and now I have taken on more responsibility with the union in that I am on an emergency exploratory committee to figure out what to do with 7 open spots.

Gov't

First off

THE VANDALS LYRICS

"If The Government Could Read My Mind"

Baby I'm more than a little concerned you see
about the New World Order conspiracies
And the covert spreading of deadly disease
They've got earthquake machines and UFO's
and black helicopters wherever we go
But I forget them all when you are with me
They can telepathically read my mind I'm not scared of what
they'll find - Let them do what they're gonna do
Cuz if the government can read my mind
they know I'm thinking of you.

They've got secretly funded internment camps
and biological warfare labs
But when you look at me they all don't seem so bad
They've got Martian traded technology,
and mind control psychology
I'll let them do what they wanna do
Cuz if the government can read my mind
they know I'm thinking of you.

I could stockpile food and join a militia
but I'd rather stay at home and kiss ya
Let them do what they're gonna do
Cuz if the government can read my mind
they know I'm thinking of you.

If the government can read my mind baby,
you know it doesn't matter what
they find, cuz if the government can read my mind
they know I'm thinking of you.



Then Secondly:

To get one part put on your car the Gov't Taxes it at least 12 times

The manufacturer pays tax to be open, and their income is taxed
The wholesaler also pays these two taxes
The retailer as well pays these taxes (so far 6 taxes and not even a buyer)
The shop has these taxes and must charge sales tax
The customer's income is taxed, vehicle is taxed, and the fuel to even get it to the shop is taxed.

This doesn't even include the other chain of taxes from employees we can draw, or the thick tax background of the customer...

no wonder everything in bloody expensive, everyone has to recoup from tax burdens

E.G. CAPITALISM SUX

Drunken Smitty

Nothing like having smitty drunk dial and ask for sex at 2 or 3 or 1 or whenever in the morning... hehehe that was funny, but even more so as he announced the answering machine message as it played and then still exclaimed very loudly what he was doing... ah being a DD is fun....