27.11.07

There are no bad students only bad teachers

It is up to each of us to determine our course of action, what is a transgression we should ignore, what transgressions are over the top, when has a transgression been repeated to many times to ignore, and truly what is our definition of a transgression.

I have three sticking points in my life:
Don't Lie
Don't Cheat
Don't Steal

based on upbringing there are shades of gray on many other subjects.
example:

Killing - never take life unjustly

that's right unjustly, once again an interpretive prone subject

The three usually can all be applied at once to the same situation most times for me. If you are cheating me out of money, then you are definitely stealing both time and money from me, and lying point blank about the need for it.

Unfortunately, I have yet to learn control over one anger trigger in my life beyond the complete and utter annihilation of the one who is transgressing against me with all tools at my disposal, but only in anger and not with calm ease.


Transgressions-
an act, process, or instance of transgressing:
as a: infringement or violation of a law, command, or duty

I said the other night at class, "Is it not honorable to do an act usually requested of you without waiting for the request, and then not expecting a reward?"

So should I take it as a passable transgression, or a transgression at all that my roommate who shares the same bathroom, doesn't clean it.

Or is it a build up.

He shaved his brother's head, and the side of his, uses the tp for tissue, and throws a lot away all in the trash can, plus he uses most of the counter space, of course showers and uses the facilities, but has not once cleaned up the bathroom or taken out the trash.

A man much wiser than me once said:

"Don't sweat the small stuff. It's all small stuff."

So where is my issue perhaps?

Another wiser said:

"Enjoy the little things, for they are what is important in life"

Or in the great cycle of learning one philosophizer stated:

"In the beginning only the small things matter; your first step, your first word, even your first breath, then you realize the small things don't matter; bigger things are important to you, college, girls, who cares about chores, however, when we drift to the end of our life we realize that yes the small things are only what matters; a beautiful sunrise, company, hellos, smiles, nature being around."

So where is the invisible line drawn, unfortunately for me it's somewhere unknown and constantly drifting. Which small is forgettable and which is a transgression?

Can I even exist in a society which more or less rewards those who are able to lie, cheat, and steal their way ahead, yet once they have "arrived" damns all who try the same on them?

If I cannot, if my kind cannot, is their a place on earth that is reachable?

Or must we create our own, can we, can we last until then?

How many times must we be the ones to show others how to act before they can take it upon themselves to act?

20.11.07

LYING LIARS AND ANGER OF JAMES

GM
ATT
CROWN
ED BOZARTH


DEATH TO THE INFIDELS!

18.11.07

good times

Picked up some magazines from Hastings today, and of course forgot my discount card, but oh well.

From them, however, I did derive some fundamental differences between myself and other instructors.

Which I had been going to point out an error in research to my foremost boss, but now I have decided against even though I have proof via this awesome web find I have stumbled upon.

Kata, and many other teachings have been left behind in favor of concentration on one certain area, which unlike most other I understand that martial arts is complex and has multiple aspects.

Overall today was a good day.

15.11.07

curriculum done

well I got the last of the semester curriculum done. At least all that is important. I have the last two weeks before kata testing, then there's two location with an extra week... review, and after that a couple of locations have two weeks back before graduation so there is even more review time there and a lot can go into planning their ceremonies, however, one location currently has only graduation day to practice.... which I am hoping to get changed.

13.11.07

Took the time

To clean out my in class box and my curriculum box so now for at least one day it will be super swell.

Tomorrow class should rule and be the last appearance of BOB this semester.

Things are just groovy, peeps are getting excited about the anti-Thanksgiving dinner coming up soon.

Went to dinner with Dirty Ole Joe and the crew at Montana Mike's and that was wicked awesome.

Tournament was great, a lot of kids on the second one, and a gaggle of first place trophies rolled out to my students. A couple of Sensei's even complimented me afterwards, made sure they passed their best onto Jessica as well, because it was in kata.

9.11.07

well then

Just did a recalc on the debt I owe, and well it's down a bit I think, albeit I have yet to be able to get online in a time wherein I can login to my mortgage account to see how far it's down, but even without that I have less than 122,000 owed as of right now. 780 of that doesn't have interest until 2010, with minimum payments I think I can even achieve that I mean over 24 months with $30 a month, it's not a problem.... oh yeah good credit, now just to get some more cash rolling in. I've been kicking it out hard core at the office for a week now, and they are quite amazed that we have one week to even get to a raffle order, yet, when they come back to us quite frequently we are on even the same day.

However, did have an unscheduled class cancellation on Wednesday. Parent teacher conferences, and the school forgot to mention it.... so no room, too cold, no class.... and I still have a TON of raffle to hand out... grr.

Another minor annoyance is that Hillcrest on Saturday will be out for a whole month (four weeks) because of winter break and then one week is the instructors meeting. I yi yi.

5.11.07

feelin' good feelin' great

Tournament was good, small turn out and no one from Lawrence, but we did miss that week before class, because of a facility's unavailability. Even though David had to help with the holding area; he had a decent time, and I slid him $40, because he wasn't scheduled to work, however, he did end up working all day. Jesse on the other hand got to do the regular helping with the lines and such, and she had a good time. I got to do some board breaks on top of the rest so that was fun.

All and all times are going okay, but I am attempting to remind myself of my own advice and insight. Truly the life you live is what you make it. Your life is only shitty, because you make it so. Sure I have no money and really really need to figure out how to get some more every month for awhile, but I know I am not feeling like I will drop dead every day. I am still eating for now. I have a roof over my head and friends and family that love me. So really despite being on the edge of financial chaos life is groovy.