Bending

I am bending, hopefully soon I won't break.

Many things get thrown my way that aren't my problems, but then they become mine. I am trying hard not to harbour anger towards others for their ignorance, but sometimes I still do.

While some people's decisions do affect me, others do not, but I still fear the immediate anger. Now is the time where I should be removing myself from situations, but because of the situations, I am forced to interject myself into them.

Though I wish to help, I feel I cannot help all, especially those who do not wish to see. I have a multitude of plans, but circumstances are preventing their completion. I do wish for simplicity, but seem to be involved in complications frequently. Meditation has become only temporary, and this is dissatisfying.

I hope soon, I can do more than tread the treacherous waters, and actually come out above, but when my fiscal abilities have taken such an unexpected downturn, my options are limited.

I despise money, but I am feeling that I must bring it up with my brother sooner rather than later. Especially with my sister's predicament, and his impending second child.