Oddity

Hanging out with my guys is always cool, but the way they tell me about things is way different too. Even the chicas. All are happy I am single. It is a congratulations. I mean was I missing something that everyone else was seeing? Nick and his chica were twice as excited for the Shield premier drink fest whence I said I wouldn't be bringing Christina. I just had a random epiphany when listening to My Girlfriend's Dead by The Vandals. No one even asks about her, except her friends. Did no one remember her because I never invited her or because she never came? Or did they just not care? It is an amazing weight lifted off me that everyone is just like awesome James. One person even called her psycho, PSYCHO, and she never met her. Okay maybe once, but that was an in passing thing. I am just way to into the unknown territory when it comes to reading chicas apparently. The odd thing is everyone says I deserve better, but yet no one has any choices to offer. They just say someone will come along.... Will I be dead? Thirty is coming up fast and my mark is small on this Earth. I have no legacy. My crisis is that of everyone, and no one is listening. Those who are willing to look at it my way already do for the most part, and those who aren't refuse to even consider the possibilities. Is it probable or even possible to find someone and something better? Especially if I must find it before the next 8.4 years are up? Well even review and searching for now off to ready for class.