Good or Bad?

Isolationism

Especially and mainly mentally. Wow the thoughts that go through this head.... I don't act on most of them, really almost all of them.

Yearning for something that I can logically deny the ability to attain at current, doesn't really benefit me any, and technically merely lowers my standards, which were very low to begin with, and in fact as I quoted yesterday: Sometimes you never even get to play the game. Which since I pre-shoot myself down typically keeps me from talking to girls or when I do my retardedness kicks in and I forget to get names, numbers, or even ages. Not that the latter has been a problem since rugby, just that I forget.

Top Three Reasons why:

1. Work - either tired from it or going to it
2. Money - not enough to support me let alone courtship
3. Time - late it the hour in which people wish to converse and early is the hour I need sleepness.