many strange thoughts

So I am thinking about giving up alcohol. I sent an email to my brother Christopher to see what his thoughts are on the subject. I have been getting really pent up lately and having terrible thoughts. I need to figure out why this is, or else I fear for others lives.... literally. I think I am keeping things in to avoid confrontations, since I know I am abnormally violent thinking lately, however, this act just adds to it. My dreams have even been reflections of these emotions. I am constantly not only having these drastically violent thoughts, but am quite lustfull... Also I have constant thoughts running through my head about how to live without a house/expenses.... Shudders, I really hope no one pushes me too far.