do YOU belive what you're told?

Continually I am told two things, I'm nice and I'm cool... but I continually think what they want to say is hey you're a good biatch.... I do what I'm asked and help out others way before myself.... Maybe that's where my violence comes from... eh shrug it off and mellow out that's my goal... wish I didn't have to work for money... I want to find a place that I can live free and just help out with what is needed and work solely on my spirituality... and cuddling ;)