Too many friends

I have too many friends, I have learned so much from them that in effect I see my faults to come as soon as I meet someone new. I am constantly studying everything. I have become a centered being, not with myself but with community. I see a path that I must follow, but I also see that I am not the one to lead down that path. For I know that if I were to take the lead, that all would be lost. While I have the capabilities I have the corruptability. I also know people when I meet them. If only I could meet like minded souls. The big picture and lesson of life is that we are wrong and that we need to learn more than we know, because we are all young, yet old in the fact that knowledge is all around us but we limit our intake, and the intake of everyone else to that knowledge. Ingrained in us is the capability to do so much, but then our soceity is designed to keep us second guessing ourselves, and that at the same time it is wrong to second guess yourself. So all we a left with is a double fear, first that we are wrong, and second that we are wrong for thinking we are wrong. I see myself doing things wrong all the time and that I permantly messed up the rest of my life in my youth for not knowing the full consequences of my childish actions. I have gone past the point of repairing myself to the fullest. Relationships come and go in my life, because of the way I am. My view is every commitment is equal whether it is to a stranger or to a lifelong companion. The fact is our youth has purposefully been drawn away from actual morals and instilled with false ones. Capitalism and moral values can never co-exist. I know now that unless I help others in the short time I have left that we are doomed, and yet I know I cannot do it within my lifetime, for eventually it will end for everyone, all I can hope to do is change the minds of the next generation and hope that they learn faster than I. Community, Listening, Caring, Pride, Compassion, Giving, Loving, and Hoping are meant for all days not just your false religions designated ones America, Learn that because I say you're wrong doesn't mean I'm right, but it does still mean you're wrong. Effort must be put forth today for tomorrow and for eternity, regardless of what happens to us something will be here. When you realize you have nothing... You can gain everything... When you realize you are insignificant... You learn that others are not because of their classification in society, but because they matter as much if not more than you.