unawares

She is so unaware of what is going to happen and unaware that even in her sleep she proves how I think she feels. When I hold her she gets mad b/c she wants to move around but then when I am away she quickly turns to get close to me. Yesterday she got mad b/c I reffered to this girl I used to know in the 8th grade as hot, years before I moved to Lawrence, and longer than that before I knew her, but still she was irked. Then she got mad as she was talking of our marriage and how if someone did something for me that I would divorce her, but I said that I couldn't answer that, because we weren't married, only that IF I get married I won't divorce, and she got very very mad at the if. Then she was mad because I am up at night, which is my sleep schedule, I mean she has been with me for nearly two years and doesn't even know me, she blames it all on smoking pot and not having a good memory, but plain and simple she only cares about her; she just uses low self esteem to throw pity parties all the time.